Pre-exam fear

I'm scared I'm terrified I'm horrified.
I've a terribly bad feeling about this semester final exam..

This semester I've studied much lesser..as compared to last semester and last year..
Too much of distraction..too much of friends' bday celebrations..
Time management and self discipline are always bad when related to study..
Countless of overslept days were experienced..falling asleep in lectures..skipping lectures due to boring lectures..omg..what have I become?
Where is the Yi Mei back in the old days?
I couldn't recognise myself with all the changes..

AAAAAaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

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Thankful

Submitted my last assignment.
But no sense of excitement in me.
It's time to prepare for finals. Not fun at all =((

Well, I should be very thankful with my current situation.

This morning, I read HH's sms asking me to wake her up this morning..
But the first thing I realised when I stepped out of my room was SL and her house slippers still placing at the door entrance!!
There's no way that they have gone out before I woke up at 7.30am.
Then I saw HH's room is still locked.
Gosh! They didnt come home last night..

That's why I said I should be thankful.
I'm actually much luckier as compared to those chemical students taking Pulp and Paper as the optional stream.
It's such a relief that I took Nanotechnology & Materials.
Most of them never sleep, never go home last night. They were all in the computer lab rushing for their last assignment and they are still doing it. OMG!!
Same goes to Mechanical students..Some of them camp in com lab last night as well..They have 3 assignments due this week.

Take care everyone!
Don't overstress ur body..i bet all of u have overworked..
*Pat Pat* The storm will be over soon.
Jia you!

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Bad Dream

Oh my..I had a bad dream.
In the dream, the airport was terribly crowded as in everyone's trying to get away from Melbourne.
I dreamed that I was late for my flight back to Malaysia. N all the following flights were full..I couldnt go back! Wuwuwu~

Got shocked and woke up..then slept back again.
The 2nd time was a part II of the previous dream.
Ignoring that the fact I was late, I went to the check in area and hoping to have a talk with the officer and they would allow me to enter..Mind u the plane is taking off in 5 minutes time!!
Miraculously, there's another person who was in the same situation as me. N the officer actually let us in and we run all the way to the departure hall and get to board on the plane!!~

Why would I suddenly have this kind of dream and it felt so real?
Does anyone have the talent to interpret dream?
I hope this dream is not foreseeing that I will miss that flight.
I shall not be late for my flight. Must be punctual!

What a shocking dream to start my Sunday..I hope the remaining of the day would be better.
Have a nice day people!

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Week 12

Another week has gone..
Week 12 of uni is like hell..

I was so unprepared for the reaction test..
Went to the battle field knowing that I'd fail for the exam..n so it was jz as I expected..even though I've put a little hope in it..hoping it would turn out slightly better..but it didnt..it was just as bad as what I thought of..
7.5% down the drain.. T_T

Stay back at Computer Lab for design until 4am. (new record)
N was told whatever I've done was not entirely right..I've done extra work on it..Grrr~
Next day redo it..then redo again after consulting lecturer..
Computer lab for this semester is so much more packed than last semester..
N it got worse for the last few weeks..there are barely any computer available..
Monash computers are so insufficient..they should extend and purchase more computer for students' benefit!
N guess what..spending like an hour strolling around com lab n couldnt get any..my group mates decided to go Monash College to use their computers since they are having a break now..N the com lab was empty! We owned the lab until 6.30pm they closed it..XD

Basically I just left one more Process Control assignment which is due on Monday morning..N i'm done with my Year 3 internal assessment..
After that I'll have to prepare for finals..in which I've not even started any preparation about it..*No eyes to see*
Still remember during Year 1, by this time most people have finished studying and started with pass year papers..As for Year 3, it's completely different..until this point everyone is still busy completing assignments and projects..This is why I've been told by seniors that year 3 is crazily different..Now I've experienced it and so finally I understand what those seniors meant by saying that it is a lot tougher..

Last minute work wont bring u any near to good grades..
Procrastinating will drive u crazy meeting up the deadlines..
Working 24 hr around the clock..just keep working..non stop stresses coming to ur way..
Just checked my Nano journal assessment mark..not sure about what majority got..
But the mark aint satisfying..been reading so much journals..ended up with that kind of marks..not worth it at all..boo!

I still havent come out with a plan on how to study for finals..
3 papers in a week..with 2 papers in 2 days..
I really don't like this type of combination..
Stressed me up to the fullest..made me a zombie-like creature for that period @@

Finals in less than 1 month..
I don't feel like studying..
I don't want finals to come..
As much as I refused to sit for finals..another thing that I m reluctant about is Year 4..I really don't wish to enter my final year..
I don't think I'm ready for it..seeing how those seniors suffer for final year design project..it's really sth that i dislike n i cannot handle..

I wish I've the talent to freeze time..
Can anyone teach me how to freeze time like what Hiro Nakamura did in Hero?

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Chosen Path

Feeling quite emotionless right now..or is it moodless?
I'm at a point..looking back @ the past n foreseeing the future..
Are these all I ever wanted?

All the while I kept telling everyone that it is my dream to study in Australia.
Yes. My dream has come true after I persisted for so long.
I'm not as lucky as some people who are being forced to study overseas by parents.
To me, they are lucky. Because they have the golden opportunity that I've ever wanted to taste the study life in overseas right after Form 5.

I've never blamed where I come from.
In fact I'm grateful that I've made it this far.
At least my dream is fulfilled.

However, thinking about next year..
A lot of friends who are on exchanging will not be around..
I'll be celebrating my first ever Chinese New Year alone on this piece of land which is so called the most densely populated state in Australia, without my family and close friends..
Will I be able to withstand it?
Up until before tonight, I thought I could.

But after the conversation with this bunch of lovely friends, I know I will miss each n everyone of them dearly next year as well as all the fun they are planning ahead.
The friendship has been bonded strongly for almost 3 years or less.
When u r away from home, u will tend to mix more with friends..not to say tend to but that is what u can seek for after family..
For my case this is exactly true..especially when I was in Sunway n now in Clayton.
It would be hard to adapt in their absence.

Well, this is my chosen path.
I should proceed and see what is awaiting for me on the following journey.

To those who are concerned, I just wanna say that U guys have been a great great friends to me..I'm truly blessed to get to know all of u..
I'll definitely miss u people.
What should be done is..cherish all the great moments together..n live no regrets!
Awww~ I need a hug now ><




Sorry for this solemn post, right now i just feel so weak to be alone.
Don't worry. I will be fine.
Still need to prepare for the 7.5% test in which I've barely started.
Sigh. Just feel like screwing it!

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An hour is lost..

This is so so crazy..i slept from 4am to 5pm..><
Still cannot get over the fact that I actually slept for freaking long when I've so much dateline to deal with..
Indeed I've played to the fullest for my mid sem break.Even the very last day I spent it on sleeping =.=
Ahhhh..So much work to do, but so little time..
Moreover, due to day light saving, my timeline is one hour ahead..meaning I've lost an hour..n i m now 3 hours apart from Malaysia time..
Gosh...someone please save me..I'm so freakout out!!
Hopefully I've the strength to complete all my tasks in time..
Gonna burn all the possible midnight oil..Wuwuwu~

*Add on*
I've been having too much fun..n still hoping to get more fun..
Oh my..Wake up n Come back to reality please..

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It's all coming back to me now

All of a sudden, things are coming back all together..
The heart beat that once lost..
The feelings that were absence..
The future that was out of sight..etc etc

It's really not a good timing for all these at the moment..
But it is irresistible.

Decision will be out sooner or later..
Just want you to know, no matter what your decision is, we will put ourselves strong together and make it through..

#There were moments of gold
And there were flashes of light
There were things we'd never do again
But then they'd always seemed right
There were nights of endless pleasure
It was more than all your laws allow
Baby, Baby, Baby

When you touch me like this
And when you hold me like that
It was gone with the wind
But it's all coming back to me
When you see me like this
And when I see you like that
Then we see what we want to see
All coming back to me
The flesh and the fantasies
All coming back to me
I can barely recall
But it's all coming back to me now

If you forgive me all this
If I forgive you all that
We forgive and forget
And it's all coming back to me
When you see me like this
And when I see you like that
We see just what we want to see
All coming back to me
The flesh and the fantasies
All coming back to me
I can barely recall but it's all coming back to me now#

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Of sales and study

Happily being a spendthrift today at Chaddy's VIP sale..
Don't ask me how I spend..I also duno by how..Finally bought my very 1st flats in my life..(ignore those bought by mum when I was still a small kid)..
I thought I would never try out flats because I am petite enough..Hmm..everything does have its 1st time..

Although VIP sales sounded like sth big..but the discount wasn't that huge after all..
Most of them are like 15-25% off storewide..discount lidat is very very little..
How I miss PDI Concept Store back in Malaysia..
Back home, the price is so so reasonable..
Over here, no matter what, the price is inappropriate!!

Oh well, I still bought myself sth..n feel slight contented..
How funny it is in a sarcastic way..There are loads to be done but still you can bump into so much monash-ians..especially engineering people in the mall..
I guess when come to shopping n sales..nobody will say 'NO' to it..

Exam timetable is out..
It's a bad bad one..
Deja Vu happens =(
3 papers in 4 days..2 papers back to back AGAIN!!!!!
I really feel like strangle the person who set the timetable..
Is it so hard to slot out a time which doesn't require exam papers to be back to back???

Chill chill..cool down please..
The yummy delicious Lindt's ice cream I tried today..Lindt Excellence 70% chocolate and hazelnut chocolate..The chocolatey favour is very intense..N it costs AUD8 for this T_T..(Thanks Baby for the treat!)

On a lighter note, there are a few things to look forward with..
MUMSU ball in 2 days time..
Royal Melbourne Show starts from tomorrow..
Mid Sem break starts on 25th of Sept..
Gold coast trip next week..

But But but..before that..I need to struggle through tests, assignment, literature review..n after the trip..more n more to come...more assignments, reports and test..
OMG..Can I just sit still, stay at home n finish up all the work?

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September blue?

Hmm..Tonight is a self-declare no work night..
Have been rushing on one deadline after another..
Assignment..Test..Assignment..
Like I've mentioned before..September is a super duper hectic month..

Speaking about assignment..the one which was due today...I was really working round the clock..reading journal after journal..burning the midnight oil..and yet I still didn't get to find what is required..T_T
The others spent like a week or two on this assignment..n for some unforeseen reasons, I practically used 2 days to finish it..This is insane..I've never read so much journals in my life..I guess I'm really not a research or science type of student..

Come Come..Let's sing together..!!
"Wake me up when September ends......"


Shall just rest for tonight..and look forward for the weekends..=)


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Anyway, while typing this post..suddenly smell something's wrong with the house..Right now, my house smells so stinky..Housemate forgotten to watch out the stove fire..T_T..The food is gone but luckily all is safe..

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Right Track

*Smile*

Finally things are getting better..and on the right track..
I do not know how long this would last..but certainly I do hope it could be as lasting as possible..even though there is saying that nothing is forever..
Happiness is not a guaranteed products.

At least for now, it is good. I am satisfied.

Oh yea..did i mention this? Spring is here! Say goodbye to winter.
Gosh..I know i will miss the cold when the sun shines..
Oh well..i never like bright and sunny day..which reflect my personality somehow..

A busy hectic week ahead.
Need to be wiser in planning schedule.

Enough for tonight.
I shall hit the sack and wake up early to study for the coming Process Control test.

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