Sad Sad Night

Sorry for the lack of updates after exam..
Been quite occupied with trips, party and the latest trend--farewell dinner.

Airport season is here again..
But this time the gloomy feeling is by far the heaviest..
It is not about people leaving Malaysia..but going back Malaysia..
N many of them are on exchange program and thus they are not coming back to Aussie after the summer..moreover for some, I might not even see them anymore in the near future..

Imagine that we are studying at different campuses (Sunway and Clayton) for our final year. Gonna graduate at different location and time.
After graduation, the future is filled with infinite uncertainties.
Some might continue with master, post grad studies, working at different corner of the world.
It'd be very difficult to gather everyone by then.
Well, there is still a small hope in me that we will still meet once again if there are good effort and strong bond of friendship between each

#I got a feeling..
That tonight is gonna be a sad night..
That tonight is gonna be a sad sad night~ Wuwuwu~#

A week ago I was still on a trip with this bunch of friends crabbing (catching crabs) at Lakes Entrance..
A week later most of them are going back and some even have gone home..

Last week I went on a Ballarat-Grampians-Lake Entrance trip.
Here are a few selected photos from thousands of them..consequences of having 2 DSLRs and 1 semi pro camera during a trip. My compact camera seems to be very lousy in this case. *sigh*

Welcome to Ballarat in salt writing by the chef in Tokyo Grilled Restaurant
King and Queen royal family photo
Cheers~ BBQ dinner at Ballarat
After coming out from the maze arena. *Heart* this photo.
Joyful and colourful =))
Picture of the Ballarat trip. The most motion-visualised award photo.
Picture speaks a thousand word. This is a good example. Haha
Special edition of Hide-Hear-Say-See No Evil ~ @ Grampians
A group photo before started crabbing
The 1st large crab that we caught after few hours of wait and disappointment.
Luxurious home-cooked dinner with crabs as side dish..LoL

The first one to leave from my house is Chin Ying. She has just left 2 days ago but she is coming back next year =)) My the-only-housemate next year probably..T_T


I've made quite a number of good friends in Aus..especially those I knew them merely by name back in Sunway but later on in Australia, we've turned out to be close friends..n they are leaving tonight..I felt so sad after the farewell dinner..
Perhaps it's a good thing that Melbourne airport is so far away from the place I stay. Else if, I'd be a crying baby at the airport..Sudden rush of tears almost came out from my eyes the moment I reached home..*Sob sob*

Bing-Kha Liang-Keat Ming leaving on a jet plane on 27th Nov, 2009

So anticipated for the food trip one month later..n that would probably be the very last time I'll see those exchange people in near future..

N the very last thing I wanna mention here is..
I wanna go home right now right now Now NOw NOW!!
I got no interest in the research topic I'm dealing with..
It's getting late..need to wake up early to work..shall continue with this topic next time..
Good night peeps!

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After exam

Say no more to exams!!!
YES! Exams are over..the last paper didnt go well as usual..basically none of the papers this sem I did can be considered as good.
Really reluctant to accept the fact the 1st honour is flying away from me..
But nothing can be done.

Exam hall. 091113 5.30pm. Exams ended.

Apart from that, I'm sick now..wasn't feeling well for the past week..Started with sorethroat..n it gotten more n more serious..until last night the congestive chest cough made me feel like suffocating..T_T
I should have listened to my mum..not to go anywhere but home to get more rest..
Well, I did listen to her advice partially..
At least I went home straight after exam..did not join any group of friends for dinner or movie..Made me feel like so antisocial..huhu~

Lotsa after exam parties were carried out last night as most Monash-ians hv completed their finals.
(Sorry for those who is still in the midst of the war..*Good Luck*)
Okay. I admit I'm a disobedient daughter that go against mum's word.
Went to "Dorothea Mackellar AXP" at night. This party is actually organised by Oakleigh guys (mixture of electrical and mechatronics students) at their huge mansion..LoL..after staying here for almost a year, this is the 1st time I visited their house..
It's really like stated: "FREE FLOW of beer(Choice of Pure Blonde or Asahi) and tequila shots throughout the night". But I didnt drink a single sip. Haha!

Well, as this might be the very last chance I will see most of them..many are leaving Aussie and most of them are exchange students..so I wont see them in uni next year..this is the reason I went.
Sean Lai flew back Msia last night, Jun is going back Spore today..then one by one leaving soon..left those who are doing summer research will be staying here for summer with me..ok..at least there is still a few friends around as compared to a big group of 40-50 ppl..


Couple shirt..LoL..Sean Lai, Bye Bye~ Hmm..see u end of the year or further future
Goodbye Jun from Sunway gals, See u next year from me n Chyi XD

The night turned out well for those drinker. Apparently they enjoyed it while dancing around. N the noise acceptance level has been exceeded until the police almost joined the party..=.=!!
Hmm..I guess this is how wild youngster can go..what more it is an after exam party whereby all the stresses are meant to be released..but through too much liquor is not good..things will get out of hand..Haha..but this is life in aussie..

The photos taken at the party is not uploaded yet as the photographer still has a war to go..haha..good luck to electrical students!
I shall get enough rest and recover soon..I've a fantastic trip awaiting me starting from tomorrow..=)
Till then, take care everyone!!

Yay~ We are Frrreeeeeeeeeeeeee!!!

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One more day

One more day. Just one more day of torture n I'm done.
Still feel very disappointed with my performance this semester.
Part of me is very angry abt myself when I can do so much better than what I've done.
Part of me is feeling so hopeless..and negative..
Part of me just feel like giving up and don't want to put in any more efforts.

I know..I know all these negative thoughts are inappropriate.
In a way, this is self-destruction.

Sigh. If only time can be reset and this semester can be restarted....

Feel so lost now..just wanna go home immediately..havent told mum abt my bad performance..not ready to let her down when i've not get prepared to face her disappointed tone..N I don't feel like doing the summer research anymore..
Don't even look forward for the summer break which will be coming after the last paper tomorrow.
Have lotsa plannings..but currently don't have the mood to carry out..

Hopefully, the excited feelings will pop out right after Control paper tmr.

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='(

It was a do-able paper.
Hints given were almost accurate.
Most people passed up the paper with a smile.

But me?
I tried hard to control the tears within.
I do not know why I didnt try out tat work example in text book when I've done the others.
I do not know why I missed out the square for the concentration.
Such fundamental stuffs. N I got it wrong and still dont know how did it happen.
3 papers. All badly done. One more to go. But it is so hopeless now.
Been telling people that I wanna maintain the results with 1st class honour.
N now it is all gone.
I've screwed up this semester badly. ='(

Nobody believe with how badly I've done.
N how to not worry with this failure.
I'm not smart. Never get good results becoz of myself. It was just pure luck.
I've fell down........miserably.

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Overdosed

I'll be so dead by the end of the week.

I really do not know how to survive with 3 heavy papers this week.
I'm so not ready. =(

Even the weather is standing at the opposite side of me.
It's bloody hot today. I couldn't focus even though I wanted to.
It's such an inefficient day..can I blame the weather?
I supposed it has been very inefficient right from the start of my preparation of exam.
I kept losing out to distractions one after another.

Last night I finally tried out the drink -- Mother, the energy drink.
Friends around me have been consuming it to stay awake for study/ assignment.
N I think I've sort of gotten overdosed today.
I cannot rest my mind badly even though I've tried.



I really need a piece of peaceful and focus mind immediately.
I do not have much time left.
This semester is terrible. =(

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Pre-exam fear

I'm scared I'm terrified I'm horrified.
I've a terribly bad feeling about this semester final exam..

This semester I've studied much lesser..as compared to last semester and last year..
Too much of distraction..too much of friends' bday celebrations..
Time management and self discipline are always bad when related to study..
Countless of overslept days were experienced..falling asleep in lectures..skipping lectures due to boring lectures..omg..what have I become?
Where is the Yi Mei back in the old days?
I couldn't recognise myself with all the changes..

AAAAAaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

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