How to be happy?

I'm very U.N.H.A.P.P.Y!
I'm unhappy with practically everything around me now.

When is the last time I really smile from the bottom of my heart?
Definitely not after I came back Aus.

I hope I could be cheered up somehow..
All I have in my mind now is just frustration and more upset..
Can Happy Meal really make someone happy?



#And I'm surrounded by
A million people I
still feel alone
Let me go home
I miss you , you know#

路太弯

下一站有没有更期待的结局
眼闭上眼看不看得见过去
看不看得见 原来那个你
和幸福的关系

路太弯 梦在转
错过的人已不在
以为我 能习惯
一个人安全感

路太弯 爱在转
明知忘记会很难
我一路上跌跌撞撞
却找不回拥抱 的形状

付出过 是不是就换得希望
呼吸太乱 世界太宽
缘分毕竟太短

Screw LJ Hooker

AAAAAAAAAAaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!!

"LJ Hooker - Nobody does better"
RUBBISH! @#$%&
Nobody does better at giving empty promise?

I was supposed to sign the lease agreement today for a house.
Before that, YC actually has asked about the details and procedure to rent the house on Monday on behalf of me. N the old lady told him that all I just need to do is go over, fill up the application form with some identification document photocopied..then we can proceed to the contract part. At that time, that old lady said that my other friends can fill in the form later when they get back to Aus.

OK! So I just went there on Wednesday, hoping to get everything done.
N then I was told that I have to get all my friends form settled thru email then only I can proceed to the contract section.

She promised that I can get the agreement signed on Friday.
OK. Fine! I've done with all my friends application forms, emailed to them yesterday before afternoon. N I asked for reply if they have actually seen my email.
I waited. Not a single reply. Fine, I will just call n check tomorrow since it is almost the end of office hour.

Today, I called and confirm with them whether I will be able to sign the agreement.
N they told me yes. Come with the bond cheque/money order and it could be done.
When the first time I called, P gave me the wrong amount. It is a wrong figure of AUD700 extra. I recalculated and found it impossible. Called again, and another guy gave me another amount which tally with my calculated value.
Went to the bank get the bond cheque done and went to Clayton happily thinking that I'll be all done with this by today even with the stuffy weather.

Went into the office, and a girl told me to wait for a moment.
Alright, I sat there patiently for an hour.
Calmly, I went over and asked how long more should I wait.
The old lady went to check and told me to come back later as the property manager (P) is having a meeting. Fine then.
Then half an hour later, P called ans requested for a bank statement.
Returned to the office with the bank statement.
I asked whether I would be able to sign the contract.
This time she said she would try and will return me with a call.
Then was told that they need a more recent statement. The previous statement I just printed it out from my online statement with the option 'latest'.
N she wanted a statement on year 2010. =.=!
Okay then. Went back to the bank and yada yada.
This time round, she said that she couldnt make it today, earliest is Monday.

WTH! After all the wait, n now u told me u couldnt have it done today.
What's the point I've been sitting in your office for the afternoon?
DAMNIT! N I did call before I come over, YOU are the one telling me that I could have it signed TODAY!
What's the point of me taking a day off from work if I couldnt get it done?
You have been wasting my time for NOTHING!
I came over on Wed n I've sent in all the forms yesterday. N u only asked permission from landlord today??? What the hell is this?
Is this the best service that you could provide?
I dont care who approached me on Wed. U people are working together in a company.
It is needless for me to tell you how to work as a team and not individually.
Don't ever make promise if you dont even know that it can be done today.

On top of that, I don't even like the house.
N I need to go thru all these hassles.
WHAT FOR?!
I just wan a peaceful year for my final year.
It is already demotivating enough when my heart is not to stay here.

I better can get the agreement signed tomorrow.
OR ELSE u people have to face the consequences.
I've made it clear.

I just feel like squeezing the bread in my hand or even throw the eggs I hv with me.
I've never argued with strangers since I'm in Aus. Zzz

This week is not my week..I had sleepless night practically every night.
N also, January is really not my month..
Can it just pass by as soon as possible before I am entirely screwed???
I know I shouldnt say this but i really hate my life now.

Dragon Boat Tragedy

Just finished talking on the phone with mum.
Had the urge to post something here.

I guess most of you (especially the Penang peeps) are aware of the tragedy due to the crash of dragon boat in Penang last Sunday. The death of a teacher advisor and 5 students (age ranging from 16-17) has caused a great impact among the public, the mourning news have been the highlights all over the papers in Malaysia. 18 people went out to sea on the long, narrow boat as training for the competition in China in May. Due to strong undercurrents, the boat was tipped over as it made a turn.

This is one of the newspaper article on the tragedy reported.
Feel free to read it if you wanna know more about it.
http://thestar.com.my/news/story.asp?file=/2010/1/20/nation/5504598&sec=nation


My mum said she couldnt bear to read newspaper these few days.
Those loss of lives are similar age as my cousins n they know each other.
All I praise god is that...Thank Godness my cousin has stopped joining the dragon boat training since middle of last year and was supposed to resume the membership in Feb..
N those who have passed away are actually active students in CLHS (Chung Ling High School). It is really saddening to receive such a bad news at the early of the year. N it is just few weeks after sch reopen. Imagine during Form 5, how happy were we when we just got back to sch..SPM is like still a long way to go..we are more concern that this would be the final year of our discipline high school life.
One word..it is just sad..Everyone is emotionally affected back home..
There is nobody to blame on..There is no WHAT IF they never go out to sea...IF they do know that it is not the right day to go out sea..IF the rescue team could carry out action asap..IF IF...
What is done is done..

I still remember abt a tragedy due to car accident a fren of my age met with during my pre u year..We were so upset over his death..
N now..loss of 5 students..

Just wish that everyone back in PG will stay strong..especially the related family and friends.
5 young boys..May you R.I.P.
My friend, Pei Qi has posted a blog post on this tragedy as well n her brother has made a video clip regarding to this. Feel free to have a look.
May God Be With You

There have been more n more negative side for the start of 2010.
I really hope this is the last..but I know no matter how much I wish so, this is not gonna be the last one. =(
Since we will still have to survive through all these, just try to make your everyday a cheerful and fruitful one.
与其伤心地度过日子,不如设法开开心心地去体验新的每一天。

Jet-lagged

It is now 5 A.M.
N I'm not sleeping yet.

Jet-lagging?
A lot of things running through my mind.

N I realise knowing what you want is one thing.
Whether it will work out like the way you wanted it to be is another.

C'est la vie!

I hope I'll be able to sort out my thinking soon.
N also be able to adjust my sleeping time to suit the Melbourne time ><

舍不得

Gareth Gates' "Say it isn't so"..this song kept playing on my mind now..
I'm really really really reluctant to leave..
The feelings are so different from last year 13th of Feb..
I still rmb I was so excited at that time..flying off with a big bunch of friends..


N meeting another big bunch of friends at Changi Airport..
The gals =)

Tonight the image would be absolutely different..
I really wish that tonight won't come by so soon..

Take good care everyone.
Shall see u people in Malaysia a year later..

我真的真的好舍不得。
或许吧,一切都以命中注定
也或许,有舍才会有得。

“谁能够划船不用浆
谁能够扬帆没有风向
谁能够离开好朋友
没有感伤
我可以划船不用浆
我可以扬帆没有风向
但是朋友啊
当你离我远去
我却不能不感伤 ”

人生.苦短

一觉起来,突如其来的噩讯,令我现在的心情好沉重.

人生之中,真的真的不能预测的事情有十之八九.
要好好珍惜身边的一切,充实的度过每一天.
Still not sleeping at this hour..when everyone is fast asleep..
Deep inside..I'm getting more n more emotional..
But I shall hide it..

I hope my tears wont drop uncontrollably on the very day..
There are a lot of things that I do not wish to leave behind..
I'm missing each n every bit of home, friends n family.
Trying to fully utilise the remaining time..
I m not sounding like this is end of the world..
But it is just the end of a chapter before I embark on the new one..
I wish I could stay forever at this chapter of my life..can I can I??

The person that is on my mind tonight is no other than u, Jia Weih!

Thanks for making time for me..I know u need to study for ur semester exams..
But still u tried ur best to meet up with us so often..
*Hugs* All the best for ur papers starting next week yea..
Now that u r going back to the Nott jungle..I wish that U could focus better and excel for all ur 6 papers!!
If all goes well, I will prolly see u in Melbourne during winter. (No promise though..still sorting out..don't kill me o~)
Mucks~ Love u much!!!

Not Leaving Yet

I was supposed to be on a jet plane yesterday night.
But I'm still in Malaysia.

I don't feel like going back at all.
I don't miss a bit about Australia.
How am I supposed to stay there for another year..or even more..

I like my current life in Malaysia.
I love the weather, the food and the reasonable pricing.
I heart familiar faces of friends & family around who pamper me, care about me, having talk of same frequency..n without any time differences.

3950 miles of distance..can I choose to not experience it?
Sigh~ Whatever will be...will be...