Goodbye 2009, Welcome 2010

It's the last day of 2009.
A lot had happened throughout the year.
This year has passed by swiftly. Things happened were as though just yesterday.
感触良多啊~

I'm not going to write any new year resolution this time cz I know I wont be following it.
I just feel like expressing how I feel about each and everything that has happened, people that I get close with this year..but I guess even if give me one whole week also I wont be able to finish expressing my thoughts..
This year is very fruitful..a mixture of good and bad..but towards the end of the year, I just wish to frame the good memories eternally and let the bad ones zonk out unconsciously..

Friends played the most vital part in my life in 2009 especially when I've to be independent while staying in Melbourne..
Unlike back in Sunway, although I'm partially being self-dependent..I don't really have to worry about grocery shopping and even when I sprained my ankle, my aunt is always there for me.

Life in Australia would not be as interesting as I've gone through without this bunch of friends.
I didn't know that I've so used to having them around.
N now I finally realise that how hard is it to have them leaving n not returning Clayton next year..
I really wish that we'd have another year study - live - party - travel - cook - eat - shop - sleep together..

This is the photo taken during HHHH's bday, together with most of friends in Aus. =)

Now whenever I thought of the life next year..I started missing every single thing I've gone thru this year..
I've even thought of exchanging/transferring back Sunway for my final year.
But someone reminded me that education is not built on the basis on friends.
Friends come and go..I cannot just follow the flow and forget about what I've dreamed of since young..even if I really transfer back and get to study with them for another year..then what about the life after graduation?
Eventually everyone will be spread out all over the world upon entering working life.

Sadness is inevitable for now.
Missing their absence is absolutely normal.
I should be truly grateful that I'm able to meet all the good people and they've painted beautiful pages in part of my lifetime drawing book.
*Positive thoughts positive thoughts*
Should stop sounding so miserable and start to cherish time being together.

Thank you all for bringing so much colour to my year 2009.
I wish we'll be able to gain a more glamorous life in the brand new year 2010!!
Happy New Year to all of u. =)

Side track of the post: I've postponed my flight back to Melb to 8th of Jan =)

Need to go out soon..well, I'm in the mood of blogging about the food trip that I've just went with my uni friends last week..hopefully the mood will be still there after today =D

39 degree

My gosh~
It's 39 degree Celsius right now.

It will be good if I've a car here.
I DO NOT like the heat, feel like being oven-ed. Huhu~

A Decision

To stay or to go...
This question has been bothering him for a long time.
He has decided finally.
My intuition was correct.

He is going back for good.
Time remaining is about 2 months.

I do not know how to response even though it is as predicted.
Deep down there still remains some hopeful thoughts.
I shall learn to accept the fact and cry no more.

Sorry for what I've said or done.
I'm really sorry.

Summer Research

I shall talk about my research in this post.
My research topic is about characterization of nanofibre non-woven properties.
In a simple context, it is all about making paper sheets from various nanofibres and finding out its structural properties as well as fibre strength in nano or micron scale.

OMG~ By typing the above paragraph, I can sense the dullness in this topic.
Why on Earth did I pick this as my first priority? To be honest, I submitted the application form like few days after it was released without even knowing most of the supervisors available. It's not until the second half of the semester only I realised what is done by those taking pulp and paper as their elective. But but, by that time, I wasn't even aware of what did I put for my preference and I never know that I'll obtain my 1st preference or I'd even obtain this summer vacation scholarship.

Even though we are allowed to submit the application form more than once and they will only consider the latest online form that we submit, but you have to understand how troublesome is it to fill up the form. There're lots of things to fill in and I bet nobody would love to do it twice. *Big SIGH*
If I were to pick it again I will switch my second preference to the first. I guess I won't mind doing something regarding process control under Karen. Wonder who is dealing with that topic..it might be a bit tough but who cares..the summer vacation is all about learning stuffs, getting paid without any allocation of marks. *REGRETFUL*

There are only 2 reasons I was attracted to sign up the summer vacation.
No. 1 is the pay of AUD480 per week. Seems a lot huh?
But to think twice, if u r able to get any part time job even working as cleaning lady, u might be able to earn more than tat!!
The No. 2 reason would be this experience will look good on my resume and might help slightly for my research project next year.

If it wasn't for that 2 reasons above, I'd certainly have gone home rather than suffering the 9 to 5 office hour routinely. I've suffered enough last year when doing my internship in Simpang Ampat. T_T
Usually, research work is flexible like my other friends. Only me and my research partner need to suffer on the FIX working hour. Sien dou sei aaaaa...
Some of my friends can even work from home and still getting paid!
Some of their supervisors went conference and were away from uni, which mean they are sort of like on holidays as well..for ~1 month!!! *SCREAMS*
ARGH!! Unfair UNfair UNFAIR!!!!

It's only the 3rd week..N I've 9 more weeks to go...............
Time creeps by slowly..this tortoise speed is really giving me a great pain. =/

Can't wait for next Friday, I'll be flying home on a jet plane.
But sadly, it's only for 2 weeks due to Uni closing down for xmas and new year break.
How pathetic my summer break is!
I'm gonna treat my 2 weeks in Malaysia as colourful as possible..
So if there's any interesting plan within that period PLEASE notify me as well!!

I'm saved

Hmmm..the time of scaring myself to death is up!
Results are out..N I'm saved. Officially done with Year 3 Chem Engineering!!!

I didn't plan to check results tonight.
N I didnt expect to have people checking results during dinner just now. The dinner was supposed to be a farewell meal for Andrew and Matthew who are flying back Msia tomorrow. Their action really made me anxious to the max!

However, this semester is not really well done. But the damage has been minimized, there is no need to retake any subject.
Feeling glad on one hand as it is better than expected, but somehow quite disappointed with my performance this semester.

I just need to learn to be able to juggle between lots of things.
As usual, I'm telling myself to do better next semester. Let's just hope that this thought would not just slip through my mind AGAIN!

Whatever that is done, is done.
Shall look forward for tomorrow and prepare for the future!

Day before judgement day

Expecting the worst to come...
Results will be released officially on Fri and unofficially on thurs which is tomorrow!!

Sigh.
Mood is pretty bad.
I know how badly I've done even though friends around have faith in me.
I'm sorry that I'll let you all down.

Shall say no more.
Everyone is eager to go somewhere else other than home tomorrow to run away from reality.
But I just feel like staying at home,being alone.

It is better to be alone when nobody can feel how you feel like.
They think everything will be alright, but you know it would not be.