Goodbye 2009, Welcome 2010

It's the last day of 2009.
A lot had happened throughout the year.
This year has passed by swiftly. Things happened were as though just yesterday.
感触良多啊~

I'm not going to write any new year resolution this time cz I know I wont be following it.
I just feel like expressing how I feel about each and everything that has happened, people that I get close with this year..but I guess even if give me one whole week also I wont be able to finish expressing my thoughts..
This year is very fruitful..a mixture of good and bad..but towards the end of the year, I just wish to frame the good memories eternally and let the bad ones zonk out unconsciously..

Friends played the most vital part in my life in 2009 especially when I've to be independent while staying in Melbourne..
Unlike back in Sunway, although I'm partially being self-dependent..I don't really have to worry about grocery shopping and even when I sprained my ankle, my aunt is always there for me.

Life in Australia would not be as interesting as I've gone through without this bunch of friends.
I didn't know that I've so used to having them around.
N now I finally realise that how hard is it to have them leaving n not returning Clayton next year..
I really wish that we'd have another year study - live - party - travel - cook - eat - shop - sleep together..

This is the photo taken during HHHH's bday, together with most of friends in Aus. =)

Now whenever I thought of the life next year..I started missing every single thing I've gone thru this year..
I've even thought of exchanging/transferring back Sunway for my final year.
But someone reminded me that education is not built on the basis on friends.
Friends come and go..I cannot just follow the flow and forget about what I've dreamed of since young..even if I really transfer back and get to study with them for another year..then what about the life after graduation?
Eventually everyone will be spread out all over the world upon entering working life.

Sadness is inevitable for now.
Missing their absence is absolutely normal.
I should be truly grateful that I'm able to meet all the good people and they've painted beautiful pages in part of my lifetime drawing book.
*Positive thoughts positive thoughts*
Should stop sounding so miserable and start to cherish time being together.

Thank you all for bringing so much colour to my year 2009.
I wish we'll be able to gain a more glamorous life in the brand new year 2010!!
Happy New Year to all of u. =)

Side track of the post: I've postponed my flight back to Melb to 8th of Jan =)

Need to go out soon..well, I'm in the mood of blogging about the food trip that I've just went with my uni friends last week..hopefully the mood will be still there after today =D

39 degree

My gosh~
It's 39 degree Celsius right now.

It will be good if I've a car here.
I DO NOT like the heat, feel like being oven-ed. Huhu~

A Decision

To stay or to go...
This question has been bothering him for a long time.
He has decided finally.
My intuition was correct.

He is going back for good.
Time remaining is about 2 months.

I do not know how to response even though it is as predicted.
Deep down there still remains some hopeful thoughts.
I shall learn to accept the fact and cry no more.

Sorry for what I've said or done.
I'm really sorry.

Summer Research

I shall talk about my research in this post.
My research topic is about characterization of nanofibre non-woven properties.
In a simple context, it is all about making paper sheets from various nanofibres and finding out its structural properties as well as fibre strength in nano or micron scale.

OMG~ By typing the above paragraph, I can sense the dullness in this topic.
Why on Earth did I pick this as my first priority? To be honest, I submitted the application form like few days after it was released without even knowing most of the supervisors available. It's not until the second half of the semester only I realised what is done by those taking pulp and paper as their elective. But but, by that time, I wasn't even aware of what did I put for my preference and I never know that I'll obtain my 1st preference or I'd even obtain this summer vacation scholarship.

Even though we are allowed to submit the application form more than once and they will only consider the latest online form that we submit, but you have to understand how troublesome is it to fill up the form. There're lots of things to fill in and I bet nobody would love to do it twice. *Big SIGH*
If I were to pick it again I will switch my second preference to the first. I guess I won't mind doing something regarding process control under Karen. Wonder who is dealing with that topic..it might be a bit tough but who cares..the summer vacation is all about learning stuffs, getting paid without any allocation of marks. *REGRETFUL*

There are only 2 reasons I was attracted to sign up the summer vacation.
No. 1 is the pay of AUD480 per week. Seems a lot huh?
But to think twice, if u r able to get any part time job even working as cleaning lady, u might be able to earn more than tat!!
The No. 2 reason would be this experience will look good on my resume and might help slightly for my research project next year.

If it wasn't for that 2 reasons above, I'd certainly have gone home rather than suffering the 9 to 5 office hour routinely. I've suffered enough last year when doing my internship in Simpang Ampat. T_T
Usually, research work is flexible like my other friends. Only me and my research partner need to suffer on the FIX working hour. Sien dou sei aaaaa...
Some of my friends can even work from home and still getting paid!
Some of their supervisors went conference and were away from uni, which mean they are sort of like on holidays as well..for ~1 month!!! *SCREAMS*
ARGH!! Unfair UNfair UNFAIR!!!!

It's only the 3rd week..N I've 9 more weeks to go...............
Time creeps by slowly..this tortoise speed is really giving me a great pain. =/

Can't wait for next Friday, I'll be flying home on a jet plane.
But sadly, it's only for 2 weeks due to Uni closing down for xmas and new year break.
How pathetic my summer break is!
I'm gonna treat my 2 weeks in Malaysia as colourful as possible..
So if there's any interesting plan within that period PLEASE notify me as well!!

I'm saved

Hmmm..the time of scaring myself to death is up!
Results are out..N I'm saved. Officially done with Year 3 Chem Engineering!!!

I didn't plan to check results tonight.
N I didnt expect to have people checking results during dinner just now. The dinner was supposed to be a farewell meal for Andrew and Matthew who are flying back Msia tomorrow. Their action really made me anxious to the max!

However, this semester is not really well done. But the damage has been minimized, there is no need to retake any subject.
Feeling glad on one hand as it is better than expected, but somehow quite disappointed with my performance this semester.

I just need to learn to be able to juggle between lots of things.
As usual, I'm telling myself to do better next semester. Let's just hope that this thought would not just slip through my mind AGAIN!

Whatever that is done, is done.
Shall look forward for tomorrow and prepare for the future!

Day before judgement day

Expecting the worst to come...
Results will be released officially on Fri and unofficially on thurs which is tomorrow!!

Sigh.
Mood is pretty bad.
I know how badly I've done even though friends around have faith in me.
I'm sorry that I'll let you all down.

Shall say no more.
Everyone is eager to go somewhere else other than home tomorrow to run away from reality.
But I just feel like staying at home,being alone.

It is better to be alone when nobody can feel how you feel like.
They think everything will be alright, but you know it would not be.

Sad Sad Night

Sorry for the lack of updates after exam..
Been quite occupied with trips, party and the latest trend--farewell dinner.

Airport season is here again..
But this time the gloomy feeling is by far the heaviest..
It is not about people leaving Malaysia..but going back Malaysia..
N many of them are on exchange program and thus they are not coming back to Aussie after the summer..moreover for some, I might not even see them anymore in the near future..

Imagine that we are studying at different campuses (Sunway and Clayton) for our final year. Gonna graduate at different location and time.
After graduation, the future is filled with infinite uncertainties.
Some might continue with master, post grad studies, working at different corner of the world.
It'd be very difficult to gather everyone by then.
Well, there is still a small hope in me that we will still meet once again if there are good effort and strong bond of friendship between each

#I got a feeling..
That tonight is gonna be a sad night..
That tonight is gonna be a sad sad night~ Wuwuwu~#

A week ago I was still on a trip with this bunch of friends crabbing (catching crabs) at Lakes Entrance..
A week later most of them are going back and some even have gone home..

Last week I went on a Ballarat-Grampians-Lake Entrance trip.
Here are a few selected photos from thousands of them..consequences of having 2 DSLRs and 1 semi pro camera during a trip. My compact camera seems to be very lousy in this case. *sigh*

Welcome to Ballarat in salt writing by the chef in Tokyo Grilled Restaurant
King and Queen royal family photo
Cheers~ BBQ dinner at Ballarat
After coming out from the maze arena. *Heart* this photo.
Joyful and colourful =))
Picture of the Ballarat trip. The most motion-visualised award photo.
Picture speaks a thousand word. This is a good example. Haha
Special edition of Hide-Hear-Say-See No Evil ~ @ Grampians
A group photo before started crabbing
The 1st large crab that we caught after few hours of wait and disappointment.
Luxurious home-cooked dinner with crabs as side dish..LoL

The first one to leave from my house is Chin Ying. She has just left 2 days ago but she is coming back next year =)) My the-only-housemate next year probably..T_T


I've made quite a number of good friends in Aus..especially those I knew them merely by name back in Sunway but later on in Australia, we've turned out to be close friends..n they are leaving tonight..I felt so sad after the farewell dinner..
Perhaps it's a good thing that Melbourne airport is so far away from the place I stay. Else if, I'd be a crying baby at the airport..Sudden rush of tears almost came out from my eyes the moment I reached home..*Sob sob*

Bing-Kha Liang-Keat Ming leaving on a jet plane on 27th Nov, 2009

So anticipated for the food trip one month later..n that would probably be the very last time I'll see those exchange people in near future..

N the very last thing I wanna mention here is..
I wanna go home right now right now Now NOw NOW!!
I got no interest in the research topic I'm dealing with..
It's getting late..need to wake up early to work..shall continue with this topic next time..
Good night peeps!

After exam

Say no more to exams!!!
YES! Exams are over..the last paper didnt go well as usual..basically none of the papers this sem I did can be considered as good.
Really reluctant to accept the fact the 1st honour is flying away from me..
But nothing can be done.

Exam hall. 091113 5.30pm. Exams ended.

Apart from that, I'm sick now..wasn't feeling well for the past week..Started with sorethroat..n it gotten more n more serious..until last night the congestive chest cough made me feel like suffocating..T_T
I should have listened to my mum..not to go anywhere but home to get more rest..
Well, I did listen to her advice partially..
At least I went home straight after exam..did not join any group of friends for dinner or movie..Made me feel like so antisocial..huhu~

Lotsa after exam parties were carried out last night as most Monash-ians hv completed their finals.
(Sorry for those who is still in the midst of the war..*Good Luck*)
Okay. I admit I'm a disobedient daughter that go against mum's word.
Went to "Dorothea Mackellar AXP" at night. This party is actually organised by Oakleigh guys (mixture of electrical and mechatronics students) at their huge mansion..LoL..after staying here for almost a year, this is the 1st time I visited their house..
It's really like stated: "FREE FLOW of beer(Choice of Pure Blonde or Asahi) and tequila shots throughout the night". But I didnt drink a single sip. Haha!

Well, as this might be the very last chance I will see most of them..many are leaving Aussie and most of them are exchange students..so I wont see them in uni next year..this is the reason I went.
Sean Lai flew back Msia last night, Jun is going back Spore today..then one by one leaving soon..left those who are doing summer research will be staying here for summer with me..ok..at least there is still a few friends around as compared to a big group of 40-50 ppl..


Couple shirt..LoL..Sean Lai, Bye Bye~ Hmm..see u end of the year or further future
Goodbye Jun from Sunway gals, See u next year from me n Chyi XD

The night turned out well for those drinker. Apparently they enjoyed it while dancing around. N the noise acceptance level has been exceeded until the police almost joined the party..=.=!!
Hmm..I guess this is how wild youngster can go..what more it is an after exam party whereby all the stresses are meant to be released..but through too much liquor is not good..things will get out of hand..Haha..but this is life in aussie..

The photos taken at the party is not uploaded yet as the photographer still has a war to go..haha..good luck to electrical students!
I shall get enough rest and recover soon..I've a fantastic trip awaiting me starting from tomorrow..=)
Till then, take care everyone!!

Yay~ We are Frrreeeeeeeeeeeeee!!!

One more day

One more day. Just one more day of torture n I'm done.
Still feel very disappointed with my performance this semester.
Part of me is very angry abt myself when I can do so much better than what I've done.
Part of me is feeling so hopeless..and negative..
Part of me just feel like giving up and don't want to put in any more efforts.

I know..I know all these negative thoughts are inappropriate.
In a way, this is self-destruction.

Sigh. If only time can be reset and this semester can be restarted....

Feel so lost now..just wanna go home immediately..havent told mum abt my bad performance..not ready to let her down when i've not get prepared to face her disappointed tone..N I don't feel like doing the summer research anymore..
Don't even look forward for the summer break which will be coming after the last paper tomorrow.
Have lotsa plannings..but currently don't have the mood to carry out..

Hopefully, the excited feelings will pop out right after Control paper tmr.

='(

It was a do-able paper.
Hints given were almost accurate.
Most people passed up the paper with a smile.

But me?
I tried hard to control the tears within.
I do not know why I didnt try out tat work example in text book when I've done the others.
I do not know why I missed out the square for the concentration.
Such fundamental stuffs. N I got it wrong and still dont know how did it happen.
3 papers. All badly done. One more to go. But it is so hopeless now.
Been telling people that I wanna maintain the results with 1st class honour.
N now it is all gone.
I've screwed up this semester badly. ='(

Nobody believe with how badly I've done.
N how to not worry with this failure.
I'm not smart. Never get good results becoz of myself. It was just pure luck.
I've fell down........miserably.

Overdosed

I'll be so dead by the end of the week.

I really do not know how to survive with 3 heavy papers this week.
I'm so not ready. =(

Even the weather is standing at the opposite side of me.
It's bloody hot today. I couldn't focus even though I wanted to.
It's such an inefficient day..can I blame the weather?
I supposed it has been very inefficient right from the start of my preparation of exam.
I kept losing out to distractions one after another.

Last night I finally tried out the drink -- Mother, the energy drink.
Friends around me have been consuming it to stay awake for study/ assignment.
N I think I've sort of gotten overdosed today.
I cannot rest my mind badly even though I've tried.



I really need a piece of peaceful and focus mind immediately.
I do not have much time left.
This semester is terrible. =(

Pre-exam fear

I'm scared I'm terrified I'm horrified.
I've a terribly bad feeling about this semester final exam..

This semester I've studied much lesser..as compared to last semester and last year..
Too much of distraction..too much of friends' bday celebrations..
Time management and self discipline are always bad when related to study..
Countless of overslept days were experienced..falling asleep in lectures..skipping lectures due to boring lectures..omg..what have I become?
Where is the Yi Mei back in the old days?
I couldn't recognise myself with all the changes..

AAAAAaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

Thankful

Submitted my last assignment.
But no sense of excitement in me.
It's time to prepare for finals. Not fun at all =((

Well, I should be very thankful with my current situation.

This morning, I read HH's sms asking me to wake her up this morning..
But the first thing I realised when I stepped out of my room was SL and her house slippers still placing at the door entrance!!
There's no way that they have gone out before I woke up at 7.30am.
Then I saw HH's room is still locked.
Gosh! They didnt come home last night..

That's why I said I should be thankful.
I'm actually much luckier as compared to those chemical students taking Pulp and Paper as the optional stream.
It's such a relief that I took Nanotechnology & Materials.
Most of them never sleep, never go home last night. They were all in the computer lab rushing for their last assignment and they are still doing it. OMG!!
Same goes to Mechanical students..Some of them camp in com lab last night as well..They have 3 assignments due this week.

Take care everyone!
Don't overstress ur body..i bet all of u have overworked..
*Pat Pat* The storm will be over soon.
Jia you!

Bad Dream

Oh my..I had a bad dream.
In the dream, the airport was terribly crowded as in everyone's trying to get away from Melbourne.
I dreamed that I was late for my flight back to Malaysia. N all the following flights were full..I couldnt go back! Wuwuwu~

Got shocked and woke up..then slept back again.
The 2nd time was a part II of the previous dream.
Ignoring that the fact I was late, I went to the check in area and hoping to have a talk with the officer and they would allow me to enter..Mind u the plane is taking off in 5 minutes time!!
Miraculously, there's another person who was in the same situation as me. N the officer actually let us in and we run all the way to the departure hall and get to board on the plane!!~

Why would I suddenly have this kind of dream and it felt so real?
Does anyone have the talent to interpret dream?
I hope this dream is not foreseeing that I will miss that flight.
I shall not be late for my flight. Must be punctual!

What a shocking dream to start my Sunday..I hope the remaining of the day would be better.
Have a nice day people!

Week 12

Another week has gone..
Week 12 of uni is like hell..

I was so unprepared for the reaction test..
Went to the battle field knowing that I'd fail for the exam..n so it was jz as I expected..even though I've put a little hope in it..hoping it would turn out slightly better..but it didnt..it was just as bad as what I thought of..
7.5% down the drain.. T_T

Stay back at Computer Lab for design until 4am. (new record)
N was told whatever I've done was not entirely right..I've done extra work on it..Grrr~
Next day redo it..then redo again after consulting lecturer..
Computer lab for this semester is so much more packed than last semester..
N it got worse for the last few weeks..there are barely any computer available..
Monash computers are so insufficient..they should extend and purchase more computer for students' benefit!
N guess what..spending like an hour strolling around com lab n couldnt get any..my group mates decided to go Monash College to use their computers since they are having a break now..N the com lab was empty! We owned the lab until 6.30pm they closed it..XD

Basically I just left one more Process Control assignment which is due on Monday morning..N i'm done with my Year 3 internal assessment..
After that I'll have to prepare for finals..in which I've not even started any preparation about it..*No eyes to see*
Still remember during Year 1, by this time most people have finished studying and started with pass year papers..As for Year 3, it's completely different..until this point everyone is still busy completing assignments and projects..This is why I've been told by seniors that year 3 is crazily different..Now I've experienced it and so finally I understand what those seniors meant by saying that it is a lot tougher..

Last minute work wont bring u any near to good grades..
Procrastinating will drive u crazy meeting up the deadlines..
Working 24 hr around the clock..just keep working..non stop stresses coming to ur way..
Just checked my Nano journal assessment mark..not sure about what majority got..
But the mark aint satisfying..been reading so much journals..ended up with that kind of marks..not worth it at all..boo!

I still havent come out with a plan on how to study for finals..
3 papers in a week..with 2 papers in 2 days..
I really don't like this type of combination..
Stressed me up to the fullest..made me a zombie-like creature for that period @@

Finals in less than 1 month..
I don't feel like studying..
I don't want finals to come..
As much as I refused to sit for finals..another thing that I m reluctant about is Year 4..I really don't wish to enter my final year..
I don't think I'm ready for it..seeing how those seniors suffer for final year design project..it's really sth that i dislike n i cannot handle..

I wish I've the talent to freeze time..
Can anyone teach me how to freeze time like what Hiro Nakamura did in Hero?

Chosen Path

Feeling quite emotionless right now..or is it moodless?
I'm at a point..looking back @ the past n foreseeing the future..
Are these all I ever wanted?

All the while I kept telling everyone that it is my dream to study in Australia.
Yes. My dream has come true after I persisted for so long.
I'm not as lucky as some people who are being forced to study overseas by parents.
To me, they are lucky. Because they have the golden opportunity that I've ever wanted to taste the study life in overseas right after Form 5.

I've never blamed where I come from.
In fact I'm grateful that I've made it this far.
At least my dream is fulfilled.

However, thinking about next year..
A lot of friends who are on exchanging will not be around..
I'll be celebrating my first ever Chinese New Year alone on this piece of land which is so called the most densely populated state in Australia, without my family and close friends..
Will I be able to withstand it?
Up until before tonight, I thought I could.

But after the conversation with this bunch of lovely friends, I know I will miss each n everyone of them dearly next year as well as all the fun they are planning ahead.
The friendship has been bonded strongly for almost 3 years or less.
When u r away from home, u will tend to mix more with friends..not to say tend to but that is what u can seek for after family..
For my case this is exactly true..especially when I was in Sunway n now in Clayton.
It would be hard to adapt in their absence.

Well, this is my chosen path.
I should proceed and see what is awaiting for me on the following journey.

To those who are concerned, I just wanna say that U guys have been a great great friends to me..I'm truly blessed to get to know all of u..
I'll definitely miss u people.
What should be done is..cherish all the great moments together..n live no regrets!
Awww~ I need a hug now ><




Sorry for this solemn post, right now i just feel so weak to be alone.
Don't worry. I will be fine.
Still need to prepare for the 7.5% test in which I've barely started.
Sigh. Just feel like screwing it!

An hour is lost..

This is so so crazy..i slept from 4am to 5pm..><
Still cannot get over the fact that I actually slept for freaking long when I've so much dateline to deal with..
Indeed I've played to the fullest for my mid sem break.Even the very last day I spent it on sleeping =.=
Ahhhh..So much work to do, but so little time..
Moreover, due to day light saving, my timeline is one hour ahead..meaning I've lost an hour..n i m now 3 hours apart from Malaysia time..
Gosh...someone please save me..I'm so freakout out!!
Hopefully I've the strength to complete all my tasks in time..
Gonna burn all the possible midnight oil..Wuwuwu~

*Add on*
I've been having too much fun..n still hoping to get more fun..
Oh my..Wake up n Come back to reality please..

It's all coming back to me now

All of a sudden, things are coming back all together..
The heart beat that once lost..
The feelings that were absence..
The future that was out of sight..etc etc

It's really not a good timing for all these at the moment..
But it is irresistible.

Decision will be out sooner or later..
Just want you to know, no matter what your decision is, we will put ourselves strong together and make it through..

#There were moments of gold
And there were flashes of light
There were things we'd never do again
But then they'd always seemed right
There were nights of endless pleasure
It was more than all your laws allow
Baby, Baby, Baby

When you touch me like this
And when you hold me like that
It was gone with the wind
But it's all coming back to me
When you see me like this
And when I see you like that
Then we see what we want to see
All coming back to me
The flesh and the fantasies
All coming back to me
I can barely recall
But it's all coming back to me now

If you forgive me all this
If I forgive you all that
We forgive and forget
And it's all coming back to me
When you see me like this
And when I see you like that
We see just what we want to see
All coming back to me
The flesh and the fantasies
All coming back to me
I can barely recall but it's all coming back to me now#

Of sales and study

Happily being a spendthrift today at Chaddy's VIP sale..
Don't ask me how I spend..I also duno by how..Finally bought my very 1st flats in my life..(ignore those bought by mum when I was still a small kid)..
I thought I would never try out flats because I am petite enough..Hmm..everything does have its 1st time..

Although VIP sales sounded like sth big..but the discount wasn't that huge after all..
Most of them are like 15-25% off storewide..discount lidat is very very little..
How I miss PDI Concept Store back in Malaysia..
Back home, the price is so so reasonable..
Over here, no matter what, the price is inappropriate!!

Oh well, I still bought myself sth..n feel slight contented..
How funny it is in a sarcastic way..There are loads to be done but still you can bump into so much monash-ians..especially engineering people in the mall..
I guess when come to shopping n sales..nobody will say 'NO' to it..

Exam timetable is out..
It's a bad bad one..
Deja Vu happens =(
3 papers in 4 days..2 papers back to back AGAIN!!!!!
I really feel like strangle the person who set the timetable..
Is it so hard to slot out a time which doesn't require exam papers to be back to back???

Chill chill..cool down please..
The yummy delicious Lindt's ice cream I tried today..Lindt Excellence 70% chocolate and hazelnut chocolate..The chocolatey favour is very intense..N it costs AUD8 for this T_T..(Thanks Baby for the treat!)

On a lighter note, there are a few things to look forward with..
MUMSU ball in 2 days time..
Royal Melbourne Show starts from tomorrow..
Mid Sem break starts on 25th of Sept..
Gold coast trip next week..

But But but..before that..I need to struggle through tests, assignment, literature review..n after the trip..more n more to come...more assignments, reports and test..
OMG..Can I just sit still, stay at home n finish up all the work?

September blue?

Hmm..Tonight is a self-declare no work night..
Have been rushing on one deadline after another..
Assignment..Test..Assignment..
Like I've mentioned before..September is a super duper hectic month..

Speaking about assignment..the one which was due today...I was really working round the clock..reading journal after journal..burning the midnight oil..and yet I still didn't get to find what is required..T_T
The others spent like a week or two on this assignment..n for some unforeseen reasons, I practically used 2 days to finish it..This is insane..I've never read so much journals in my life..I guess I'm really not a research or science type of student..

Come Come..Let's sing together..!!
"Wake me up when September ends......"


Shall just rest for tonight..and look forward for the weekends..=)


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Anyway, while typing this post..suddenly smell something's wrong with the house..Right now, my house smells so stinky..Housemate forgotten to watch out the stove fire..T_T..The food is gone but luckily all is safe..

Right Track

*Smile*

Finally things are getting better..and on the right track..
I do not know how long this would last..but certainly I do hope it could be as lasting as possible..even though there is saying that nothing is forever..
Happiness is not a guaranteed products.

At least for now, it is good. I am satisfied.

Oh yea..did i mention this? Spring is here! Say goodbye to winter.
Gosh..I know i will miss the cold when the sun shines..
Oh well..i never like bright and sunny day..which reflect my personality somehow..

A busy hectic week ahead.
Need to be wiser in planning schedule.

Enough for tonight.
I shall hit the sack and wake up early to study for the coming Process Control test.

Positive thinking

*Positive thinking* *Positive thoughts*

I m in need of more positive ion charges.

I need to overcome this barrier or so called Jordan River.
I have to and I must be able to.

Sudden Crave

Suddenly have the strong urge to eat tan tart (egg tart)

N last night was craving for ice cream..Durian ice cream from Freddo is double thumbs up!!



When can I have them?

Sigh..mood is pretty bad now..
Perhaps nice food can cheer me up?

Free Zone 2 Bus Travel

"The weekends are going to be even sweeter in September with free Zone 2 bus travel.

For each Saturday and Sunday in September, you can travel for FREE by bus to any destination within Zone 2.

It's all part of discovering how handy buses are to catch cross-town. What's more, buses are a great way to get from one leisure point to another on the weekend."

For more information, please visit:
Metlink Free Zone 2 Bus Travel


I hope I didn't misinterpret this news wrongly.
This simply means that our weekends travel by bus in Zone 2 is FOC for the entire September!!
WOohoo~
But but..with so many deadlines coming up..where can I go? T_T
What a short while excitement =.=
Just sharing this piece of information to everyone .. perhaps it might benefit anyone of you..

GC Accommodation

Finally finally finally.. Gold Coast accommodation is settled.
Notice that I repeated the world finally.

It has been quite a trouble searching for accommodation.
Most of the apartments/ hotels are no longer available..
Not to say that there arent any hotels/ apartments left in Gold Coast..It cannot be right...there are infinitely plenty out there..
What I meant is that those reasonably priced accommodation...are fully sold out..
Probably is because the week that we are going...is actually the start of school holidays for Aussie kids as well..I can imagine how crowded would surfer paradise be...how long queue would be for all the theme parks..
Oh well, what to do...air flights have been booked..and we only have that one pathetic week of mid sem break..unlike some other uni which have 2 weeks..

We can actually avoid all these hassle..IF only we make the booking earlier..
I gonna learn to be more efficient next time..
What others do or think..is not within your control..
But what you can do...you should just take the initiative and try your best..
Yeap yeap..I've a lot more to learn to be a better person..

Hopefully it would be a great trip..n everything would be worthwhile..

Lesson learnt: Never be last minute.

Back to studies @@

Self-discipline

I just listed all the deadlines for this semester in uni just now..
September is gonna be a crazy month..
Deadlines are lining up neatly..
NOOoooooo!!!
FYI, September is the most eventful month..there would be a Ball, Royal Melbourne Show, Tulip Festival and a trip to Gold Coast...@@

I'm getting worse and worse at managing my time..
Grrr...Self-Discipline..I Need YOU!!
Please come back to me..*begging hard*

Sometimes

Sometimes..all you need is just a little words of comfort..
Sometimes..all you need is just a friendly hug..
Sometimes..all you need is just a show of care..
Sometimes..all you need is just some assurance..a boost of confidence..
Sometimes..all you need is just a pair of attentive ears..
Sometimes..all you need is just a pair of warm hands..

Sometimes..you find that nobody understand you..
Sometimes..you feel like you are alone..

Sometimes..
Sometimes...
Sometimes....



#Sometimes I run
Sometimes I hide
Sometimes I'm scared of you
But all I really want is to hold you tight
Treat you right
Be with you day and night
Baby all I need is time#

Reminded me of Britney's old pop song..
Just listened to it from my IPOD..

Sometimes..it feels good to listen to old songs..
They bring back memories..and you will realise how much you have grown..

Legendary Wikipedia

Just now heard a loud scream outside my room..
N guess what?
My friend aka my housemate appears on Wikipedia..
Woohoo..Unbelieavable!!
This is like legendary..XD




Cannot see?
A closer look..there you go..^^



Still cannot? I suggest you to click on the photo and enlarge it XD

Even though the statement sounded a bit exaggerated, but in fact it is quite true..only the description gets a bit too over..Hehe

A warning to the culprit behind this..you better beware o...Hoho~

Oh well, lesson of this story is..never trust Wikipedia completely.

What is my strength?

Have you ever wonder what is your strength?

This question was posted during last week life group.

Even though I was the second last to answer this question, I couldn't seem to get an answer after cracking my head hard..
All I could think of was..I DO NOT have one.
-I'm not creative.
-I'm not hardworking.
-I'm not determined.
-I'm not good at talking.
-I'm not careful.
-I'm not a risk taker.
-I'm not patient.
-I'm not very kind, very helpful. (I always have the selfish thoughts @@)
-I'm not a good organizer (even though I used to think so..perhaps there is never perfect planning)
-I'm not quick thinker/ responder.
-I'm not optimistic.
-I'm not good at music, arts, writing, cooking.

So...
What am I?
Good for nothing.
Good for all the weakness.
Gosh...I feel so weak, so small.

I hope the next time when I ask myself this question again.
I will be able to come up with an answer.

From July to August

Just dropping by to say 'Hi'
Time creeps in day by day. July has just gone and now come August.
Even though it is week 3 of the new semester..I'm still unable to tune my holiday mood back to study. There is a lot to catch up.

As usual, I've not updating much on the blog..
Shall just do a quick one over here..

Have been quite occupied with academically unrelated stuffs..
This week in uni we have multicultural week.
Have been helping out to make tau foo fa and selling it at the counter for the past 3 days.
The main chef expressed by saying: "I've NEVER seen nor made so much tau foo fa in my life!"


Hahax. Exactly! I guess this delicacy is the one that I wont be missing it the most until later time.
Even though the cost is low, but to make tau foo fa starting from scratch (soy bean) is really a tedious process.
I'd opt to buy it instead of making it if it is just to satisfy my own desire.

I've been party hard as well.
Mind you, Not those clubbing type party that you have in mind.
FYI, Yi Mei has still never been to any club yet.
N someone rephrased my sentence by saying 'never been 2 any' into 'wont b going' @@
Oh well, I can't guarantee in that. But until now, I still do not have the intention of going to one. Pub/ Bistro is okay, but not club.
By the way, I've been to a few Bistro back in Penang. I love the atmosphere but not the price that needed to pay for the alcohol.

In my dictionary, the party term that I meant is having fun, enjoying precious moment with friends.


Preparation for Pasta Night


Pasta Night




Sing K session @ Party World


Night view from Eureka Skydeck


Tau Foo Fa desert (homebrew!)


Counter at Multicultural Festival


August Born Babies Pre-celebration (Special dedication: Bacardi and Avogado)


August Born Babies: Kelvin Kok, Kelvin Kuay and Kelvin Ong *ROFL*

P/S: So much for a quick post..few hours have just gone...@@

Ski Trip

Since I promised that I'll blog about my winter break trips, so I better do so as I do have a little blogging mood tonight.

Let me see...where should I start..
The norms usually start from the first..
I wanna be counter-norm..LoL..I will start from the last trip..A 3D2N SKI TRIP!
Yeap..I went for ski-ing during the last weekend of my break @ Falls Creek.
It was right after the results were released.
It's really a blessing to be able to go on trips without a heavy heart as my results are considerably satisfying..at least it is a lot better than expected. Thanks for all the prayers and wishes..=)

Gather at Robert Blackwood Hall at 1.30am with temperature of 7 degree Celcius.
Departing about an hour later.
The journey wasnt that pleasant as the seat of the bus is static as in not the type that can be reclined. It's quite a torture as it was a 8-hour travel. However I still gotten a couple hours of sleep..

The weather was pretty sunny on the day of arrival until the extent that most of us were sweating due to layers of thermal clothing. But 2nd day was rather misty and windy with low visibility.


Ski-ing for a beginner is all about falling down.
I've lost count on the amount of times that I fell down in order to stop.
I admit I'm totally not talented in this.
Looking at how graceful people can ski..really do admire them inside out..
Oh well..it is alright..at least I get to experience sth new..
Perhaps one day I'd master it? haha..currently I do not think so I've the interest..
But the others were quite keen on going to ski/snowboard for another time though.


At the snowy land


Dinner time


The scrumptious food (The main dishes were not that decent though..only dessert and snacks were yummy!)


In the room


The best part of the trip was that it snowed!! It is a dream come true for me =)


Another wonderful part was to be able to build snowman ^^


The group with our snowman *Winks*


After getting back to Clayton, we had our dinner at Sofia @ Burwood.


N my winter break is officially ended.

Determination and Faith

First week of semester two Year 3 is done.

Hello people.
I guess I've started to abandon the blog again.
There are too much distractions around..Facebook, outings, drama, sleep......etc
N the root of all is..I'm lazy
Especially after uploading photos on facebook and tagging each n every picture..I felt like as if I've completed the mission of telling stories about my trips and outings.

It is hard to get rid of procrastination.
It is hard to maintain the continuity contribution to the blog.
Because...I'm lazy by nature...hahaha
I do not have strong determination. This is my weak point. I always do things like "hangat hangat tahi ayam".
Since young, from playing organ, writing chinese caligraphy, drawing, guitar......none of them I've ever showed persistent in myself. I got interested. I learned. N I stopped.

Oh well. This is me. Sounded very useless though.
Everything is like an excuse.
Nobody is born with strong determination.
It all depends on your own.
It is a matter of whether you want it to continue or not.
I still have a long way to go in learning this.

Hmmm..how come I can get sidetracked so much from the main topic that I wanted to share.
Perhaps I should just let it be and come back to that next time.

I'm not feeling very happy right now.
It doesnt feel good when someone who is close to you no longer have faith in you.
Intentionally or unintentionally the words that were said have hurt the heart.
Do you know which part of our body is the most powerful weapon?
The anwer is tongue!

"An unguarded tongue has destructive effects."

Yes. Even though tongue cannot hurt physically.
But it is more painful to be hurt mentally.
Injuries that were caused by cut, bite, kick, whack or any physical impact will eventually recover one day.
However the internal injuries from the heart and feeling..which can't be seen might stay forever.

It is always two-way flow when come to relationship with people.
If someone doesn't have faith in you..perhaps u need to do more to gain back the trust.
But it is really annoying when you have tried and the problem is still there.
When you though that you are progressing..but in the end the result showed that you are actually not standing any further from the starting point..it is really a big disappointment..as if u hv never done anything about it..

If you feel tired, you would wish to get some rest.
So...Am I tired now?

Eye 'm' beck~~~

Finally, I can sit down nicely and come online..
It has been very eventful ever since my finals ended..
Been for a 6 days trip to Tasmania, traveling from the North to South part..
Right after the trip, catch up with Penang friends and celebrated Elvin's bday at Lygon..
Come home, unpack the luggage and repack n whee~ Off to another trip to Phillip Island for 3D2N..
Following by the trip is a dinner with Penang girls in the city and strolling along Yarra River..

I have been out continuously...
Now this is scary...it is really like non-stop...
There are still more to come..HSC gathering in Melb, ski trip, a few more friends coming over to Melb..N I wanted to go shopping...
N I left like 2 weeks of break only...
Hmm...u can say that I fully utilise the break, enjoy it to the fullest..
But deep down, I actually just wanna have enough rest..
In fact, staying at home and relax is not a bad way of spending this winter break as well..

N now..i'm falling sick..
I hope this is not swine flu...shall see how tmr..
More posts on my holiday trips will be coming up soon (Just hope I dun slack again)

Finally

Finallyyyy..I'm done with the finals.
Oh well, today's paper was easy but I did not do well.
I overestimated the paper and focus on the wrong topic.
*Sigh* This is life.
But I really dislike it in which have to bear the disappointment in myself for the last paper.
Usually I can jump for joy during last paper, but just not this time.
I was really really unprepared.
Was bothered by some issues n yada yada..there it goes...c'est la vie again..

Slept for the entire afternoon after got home.
But still cant get rid of the panda eyes and the tiring face.

Hmph. Stop thinking about the negative thingy.
I should feel excited now.
Just done packing.
Flying off to Tassie tomorrow, joining Rhian n co.
Ok. Announcement time: The author will be away until 2nd of July (earliest)
Hahax..If u r loyal follower of this blog, you should know that I only blog more often during exam period.
I wish I can keep the habit of constant blogging though.
Perhaps I should set this as a target.

Alrighty.
Happy Holidays to all...n in advancement to those who still have exam next week as well.
Good luck to all Mechanical and Mechatronics students for ur very last paper on Tues.
Hehe. Don't feel jealous yea. Hang in there..Ur holidays will be here. XD


I will be back =P

Ice Cream Crave

I'm craving for ice cream.
Desperately, strongly desire for ice cream now. =(
Today was totally a moodless one.
*Sigh*


Häagen-Dazs 5 mini scoops (forgotten the name)


Paddington Pancake


Häagen-Dazs Chocolate Fondue

Lastly something from Aussie,

Sofia Gelato (swl's funny face is not the main character..if u feel like laughing then please do..sorry..my mood really isnt good..)

*BIG SIGH*
The pictures are not helping at all.
I'm craving for it even more. =((

2 more to go

Just finished the 2nd paper.
It's bad.
I'm not a bright student, yet I'm so lazy.
Who else can I blame?
Nobody but myself

Oh well, I can't do anything about the past.
But I can change tomorrow.
Hope tomorrow's morning paper would be fine.
By hoping is not enough, I gonna work hard to get what I desire.

Happy Papa's Day

It is the 3rd Sunday of June!!
People, I hope u didnt forget today is Father's Day.

I've nearly forgotten about it. Luckily mum reminded me on the phone last night.

Just something interesting to share about..
Perhaps this is not new to you, but it is definitely something new to me..
Sorry for being the frog in the deap deap well..I'm really unaware of it..

Do you know that Father's Day in Australia is celebrated at a unique time?
Unlike in most countries whereby Father's Day is celebrated on the 3rd Sunday of June, the Aussie n NZ Father's Day is celebrated on the first Sunday of September.
All the while I thought Father's Day is celebrated simulataneously at 3rd Sunday of June throughout the whole world.
Now only I realise that it is not. Even Sweeden, Spain and Belgium have a different date for Father's Day as well.
Boohoo!~ This made me lost in a bet.
Must widen my knowledge liao...Doesnt feel good to be katak..*Sniff Sniff*

Note for myself:-
Today's morning study is real bad, very very un-productive.
*Sigh*
Yi Mei ar Yi Mei, you really wanna flung your exam is it?
I beg you..study..study hard please please please...@@

I got this sms from my dad on the day of my 1st paper.
But I just got to read it yesterday due to my hp in aus cannot read chinese character =.=
"成功给坚持的人.卓越给努力的人,
健康给付出的人,梦想给快乐的人。
祝福，送给美丽智慧卓越的女儿,愿你从今每一天都充满喜悦，加油！"

Hmmm...
So?!
Cannot let people that support you to feel down and disappointed right???
Now...go STUDY!!!
This is the last week of battle d..GO GO GO!! Aza Zza fighting spirit!!

Everything's gonna be okay

Currently, it is 11.47pm. I'm still at Computer Lab G19, Building 60.
G19 has been my 2nd home for the entire week or more.
I spent practically half of my day here. 10-12 hours per day.
I sound like very nerd to study at uni everyday.
But..bear in mind that I only study when finals approached.
N..N..worse still it is last minute study, burning every possible midnight oil.

Anyway, this is a good place to study actually especially during winter..
Back at home my body will be shivering and my feet will be as cold as freezing ice..
YET I still have to force myself to study..
That's why I will resort to my cosy bed most of the times..

How strange it is..
I never fall asleep during lectures before (there is only time when I slept intentionally)..but the number of times I fell asleep is so frequent this semester..
I seldom read my notes and aslept on the bed/desk, but it happened frequently until I've lost count for this exam period..
Blame the weather? Blame the boring lectures? Blame my laziness?

I hope next semester will be better in terms of my self-disciple, time management, grades for studies, relationship wise etc etc etc.

For now, just stay focus..try your best, give the best shot and hope for the best
"Everything's gonna be alright
Everything's gonna be alright

Whoever thought the sun would come crashing down
My life in flames, my tears concrete the pain
We feel the end, the darkest, deepest riverbed
My book of life ain't complete without you here
Alone I sit and reminisce, sometimes
I miss your touch, your kiss, your smile
And meanwhile you know I never cry
Cuz deep down inside
You know our love will never ever die

Everything's gonna be alright
Everything's gonna be okay
Everything's gonna be alright
Together we can take this one day at a time
Can you take my breath away?
Can you give him life today?
Is everything gonna be okay?
I'll be your strength
I'll be here when you wake up

Take your time, and I'll be here when you wake up

I never thought my heart would miss a single beat
Caress your hands, as I watch you while you sleep
So sweet, I weep as I search within
To find a cure, to bring you back again
And the sun will rise, open up your eyes
Surprise, just a blink of an eye
I try, I try to be positive
You're a fighter, so fight, wake up and live

Everything's gonna be alright
Everything's gonna be okay
Everything's gonna be alright
Together we can take this one day at a time
Can you take my breath away?
Can you give him life today?
Is everything gonna be okay?
I'll be your strength
I'll be here when you wake up

Everything's gonna be alright

I'd give my life to only see you breathe again
Hand in hand as we walk on the white sands
To hear your voice, rejoice as you rise and say
This is the day that I wake, and pray, okay?
Tears in silence, as time just moves on
You can't hear it though, but I'm playin' my favorite songs
I miss you much, I wish you'd come back to me
You see I'd wait a lifetime, cuz you're my destiny

Everything's gonna be alright
Everything's gonna be okay
Everything's gonna be alright
Together we can take this one day at a time
Can you take my breath away?
Can you give him life today?
Is everything gonna be okay?
I'll be your strength
I'll be here when you wake up"

Stressful

Tick Tock Tick Tock..
The remaining time is decreasing bit by bit..
My heart beat is pumping faster n faster..
I'm feeling weaker n weaker..

NNnnnOOoooooo...
Stop Stop Stop!!
I need more time...more time please...T_T



I'm losing my mind now......
I'm not preparing for paper tomorrow but the 3rd paper..
Am I making the right move???

Why my time management become so terribly bad..
How can I just realize this?
My 1st paper is in the afternooon (Thur)
2nd paper is also in the afternoon (Mon), but 3rd paper is in the morning (Tues)
How to cope with 2 subjects within 3 days..especially when I m not good in both of them..
Arrrrggggggggghhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.........

Does it really work? As in to reverse the term of stressed..
If that is the case, bring it on...dessert dessert...I wan lotsa n lotsa of them...

Exams - 2 days away

My final gonna start in two days time..
The time frame given to prepare for this final is actually a very very sufficient one..
It is in fact the best compared to previous 4 finals that I had..

If only I could manage my time better,
If only I could manage my emotion better
If only I could manage myself better....

Feeling sorry for not making full use of the time..
But what to do?
Time lost can never be regained..
I should just try my best to utilise the remaining time..
Well, my best is definitely not this..
When only I will learn? Feel like just *smacking my head*

Mechatronics students starting exam tomorrow..
Chem Eng students will begin the exam the day after tomorrow..
Mechanical students left 2 more papers and it is time to slack now..
Whoever it is...GOOD LUCK!!!
N don't be too stressed up..
Especially to myself..DO NOT PANIC!!!

Where is my panic button?

Monash exam period just started today..

However, my final examination is one week away...
But I'm sleeping more than ever..
I need to find my panic button and accelerate it!!!
Voices from the angel.."Gal, you need to study..you still have so much to cover.."
(Evil:"But but... it is so cosy to just hide under ur quilt during winter.")
Angel:"You know you cant bear to waste so much time on sleeping..You don't have much time left."
(Evil:"Ohh..Just relax la..it is still a week away..")
Angel:"One week is short..it will just end before you even realise it.."
Ahhhh...I know I know...I Need to stay focus..
Please don't slack anymore...
Root of all evil is the laziness in me...*Knock knock*

Anyway, good luck to all mechanical students for the 1st paper tomorrow..
Gambateh!!

Stop Sleeping

Arrggghhhhh....

This piggy head has been sleeping a lot lately..
Until an extend that she could not hear her alarm or any incoming call..
There was once she even received more than 10 times waking up call..but she heard nothing..=S

Sleeping a lot when there is nothing urgent is still not tat bad..
Let me define sleeping a lot..for now, more than 4/5 hours are a lot!!
I've so much datelines to deal with, so much reading to do..
How can I still sleep so much???

Wake Up Wake UP!!!
Please help reminding me...that I don't have much time..I can't afford to sleep so much..
I must only focus on the priorities..
Stop get distracted by other things..

Too little time, but never too late!!
Must be positive..must be productive..must jia you!!!

P/S: Group mates, I'm truly sorry for being unfruitful this time. ><

Obsession I

I guess there are several crazy moments in your life.
If you are thinking of no..then ur life must be very dull...=X
Go do something crazy especially when you are still eligible for it n ppl wont be commenting too much..Imagine you doing sth crazy when u hv turned being papa or mama or ah kong or ah ma??
Haha..just go for it and be wild ^^ (Watch out your limit though)

My life now..basically jz revolving around never ending assignments, reports (it has jz ended last week..Hooray!), tests n more tests..

This is what happened when you are under a lot of pressure..
N you need to destress..XD
I'd say shopping is an effective way to destress..haha..but then u will feel the pain in ur wallet after destressing..but it still put a sense of satisfactory smile on my face..=)

N I just love sales..^^
Not only fashion sales..when u r away from home with currency exchange rate of AUD1=RM2.7, you would really be glad when there are sales on FOOoooD!!
U wont be expecting 2 gals carrying a shopping trolley to shop in Chadstone right???
Haha..CY n I just did that..^^
N we dun have any empty hand at all..LoL..This is tiring, but fun at the same time..
Yes..Just call us crazy..=P

The moment when we got crazy with

TIM TAM!! ($1.89 each)




Sara Lee Ice Cream ($5.97 each)





More n more snacks..


P/S 1:-All prices are only exclusively available at Woolsworth/ Safeway Vic..Hahhaa

P/S 2:- Worry not! Food in the photos above aint mine only..I'll try to watch over my weight..though it has increased ever since I'm here..
What to do? I'm stressed!!!

P/S 3:-My housemate can make 'siu mai'..LoL..It's delicious after the addition of bacon..^^


Does anyone know how to make 'ha kau'? Please tell me yes..LoL