Still not sleeping at this hour..when everyone is fast asleep..
Deep inside..I'm getting more n more emotional..
But I shall hide it..

I hope my tears wont drop uncontrollably on the very day..
There are a lot of things that I do not wish to leave behind..
I'm missing each n every bit of home, friends n family.
Trying to fully utilise the remaining time..
I m not sounding like this is end of the world..
But it is just the end of a chapter before I embark on the new one..
I wish I could stay forever at this chapter of my life..can I can I??

The person that is on my mind tonight is no other than u, Jia Weih!

Thanks for making time for me..I know u need to study for ur semester exams..
But still u tried ur best to meet up with us so often..
*Hugs* All the best for ur papers starting next week yea..
Now that u r going back to the Nott jungle..I wish that U could focus better and excel for all ur 6 papers!!
If all goes well, I will prolly see u in Melbourne during winter. (No promise though..still sorting out..don't kill me o~)
Mucks~ Love u much!!!

Day before judgement day

Expecting the worst to come...
Results will be released officially on Fri and unofficially on thurs which is tomorrow!!

Sigh.
Mood is pretty bad.
I know how badly I've done even though friends around have faith in me.
I'm sorry that I'll let you all down.

Shall say no more.
Everyone is eager to go somewhere else other than home tomorrow to run away from reality.
But I just feel like staying at home,being alone.

It is better to be alone when nobody can feel how you feel like.
They think everything will be alright, but you know it would not be.

Right Track

*Smile*

Finally things are getting better..and on the right track..
I do not know how long this would last..but certainly I do hope it could be as lasting as possible..even though there is saying that nothing is forever..
Happiness is not a guaranteed products.

At least for now, it is good. I am satisfied.

Oh yea..did i mention this? Spring is here! Say goodbye to winter.
Gosh..I know i will miss the cold when the sun shines..
Oh well..i never like bright and sunny day..which reflect my personality somehow..

A busy hectic week ahead.
Need to be wiser in planning schedule.

Enough for tonight.
I shall hit the sack and wake up early to study for the coming Process Control test.

GC Accommodation

Finally finally finally.. Gold Coast accommodation is settled.
Notice that I repeated the world finally.

It has been quite a trouble searching for accommodation.
Most of the apartments/ hotels are no longer available..
Not to say that there arent any hotels/ apartments left in Gold Coast..It cannot be right...there are infinitely plenty out there..
What I meant is that those reasonably priced accommodation...are fully sold out..
Probably is because the week that we are going...is actually the start of school holidays for Aussie kids as well..I can imagine how crowded would surfer paradise be...how long queue would be for all the theme parks..
Oh well, what to do...air flights have been booked..and we only have that one pathetic week of mid sem break..unlike some other uni which have 2 weeks..

We can actually avoid all these hassle..IF only we make the booking earlier..
I gonna learn to be more efficient next time..
What others do or think..is not within your control..
But what you can do...you should just take the initiative and try your best..
Yeap yeap..I've a lot more to learn to be a better person..

Hopefully it would be a great trip..n everything would be worthwhile..

Lesson learnt: Never be last minute.

Back to studies @@

Self-discipline

I just listed all the deadlines for this semester in uni just now..
September is gonna be a crazy month..
Deadlines are lining up neatly..
NOOoooooo!!!
FYI, September is the most eventful month..there would be a Ball, Royal Melbourne Show, Tulip Festival and a trip to Gold Coast...@@

I'm getting worse and worse at managing my time..
Grrr...Self-Discipline..I Need YOU!!
Please come back to me..*begging hard*

Sometimes

Sometimes..all you need is just a little words of comfort..
Sometimes..all you need is just a friendly hug..
Sometimes..all you need is just a show of care..
Sometimes..all you need is just some assurance..a boost of confidence..
Sometimes..all you need is just a pair of attentive ears..
Sometimes..all you need is just a pair of warm hands..

Sometimes..you find that nobody understand you..
Sometimes..you feel like you are alone..

Sometimes..
Sometimes...
Sometimes....



#Sometimes I run
Sometimes I hide
Sometimes I'm scared of you
But all I really want is to hold you tight
Treat you right
Be with you day and night
Baby all I need is time#

Reminded me of Britney's old pop song..
Just listened to it from my IPOD..

Sometimes..it feels good to listen to old songs..
They bring back memories..and you will realise how much you have grown..

What is my strength?

Have you ever wonder what is your strength?

This question was posted during last week life group.

Even though I was the second last to answer this question, I couldn't seem to get an answer after cracking my head hard..
All I could think of was..I DO NOT have one.
-I'm not creative.
-I'm not hardworking.
-I'm not determined.
-I'm not good at talking.
-I'm not careful.
-I'm not a risk taker.
-I'm not patient.
-I'm not very kind, very helpful. (I always have the selfish thoughts @@)
-I'm not a good organizer (even though I used to think so..perhaps there is never perfect planning)
-I'm not quick thinker/ responder.
-I'm not optimistic.
-I'm not good at music, arts, writing, cooking.

So...
What am I?
Good for nothing.
Good for all the weakness.
Gosh...I feel so weak, so small.

I hope the next time when I ask myself this question again.
I will be able to come up with an answer.

2 more to go

Just finished the 2nd paper.
It's bad.
I'm not a bright student, yet I'm so lazy.
Who else can I blame?
Nobody but myself

Oh well, I can't do anything about the past.
But I can change tomorrow.
Hope tomorrow's morning paper would be fine.
By hoping is not enough, I gonna work hard to get what I desire.

Short Term Memory Loss

Sigh. My short-term memory loss symptom is getting more and more serious..
In this two-week, the total number of stuffs that I've forgotten is huge.

-First I locked my key inside my room.
-Second I lost my Bros water bottle. I don't have a clue of where I put it.
-Thirdly is I forgot about my handphone on the way I go to friend's house for assignment discussion. But luckily it's safe and sound on my desk.
-Fourth thing is I nearly forgot about my dad's birthday on 25th. Luckily I get to remember it during a boring lecture.
-Another thing is I forgot to bring the city map out last week when I needed it badly. I've circled the place that I was heading. I just simply forgotten about it and left it on the table.
-My Faber-Castell eraser is missing too. I only realise it when I were about to sit for my Thermo test 2.
-I tend to forgot those grocery shopping that was paid by me. In the end, I didnt get any refund from friends. I'm still trying hard to remember where the money has gone to.
-More often than not, I forgot whatever that I wanted to say to people after they finish their speech. It's just all blank on my brain for that instance.

In fact, now I've forgotten what I've forgotten.=.=!!

Just went online searching what is the structure that is responsible for short term memory..and it is called pre-frontal lobe.
"This region is located at the very front of the brain and is highly developed in humans. It is the reason that we have such high, upright foreheads, compared with the receding foreheads of our cousins -- the apes. Hence it is no surprise that the part of the brain that seems most active during one of the most human of activities is located precisely in this pre-frontal region that is well developed only in human beings."The Brain From Top to Bottom

So does that mean that my forehead is not high enough? *Double sweat*

Sigh.
I cannot continue being like this.
If not, by the age of 30, I might even lose myself. OMG!!
I gonna learn to remember stuffs hard. The 1st thing for now is write down whatever that I ought to remember or ought to do when it is still on my mind. I hope I can get rid of this short term memory loss thingy soon.

Please have a hard knock on me whenever u see me leaving things behind.
Please please have a harder knock on me whenever u know that I've forgotten sth twice or more.
Thank you!!

Today, my horoscope says:


Sigh..Bad feelings about truth to be revealed..
But I didn't tell anyone..
Maybe this is the reason where all my nightmares came from..
*Fingers cross*

A Call

Received an early call this morning..
Usually I wont get any calls before 11 during holidays..
For those who would call, they certainly know that I wont be awake such early..
Hehe..This is the best period to hv nice slumber without any worries..

Upon reaching my hp..I was still blur..N saw some weird combination of numbers..
"Hello.." Huh? Who's this?
"I'm ZX la"...LoLx..It was ZX..So blur till cant even recognise his voice..
Hmph..Duno whether he did it on purpose or forgot about the time difference..
Woke me up so early...If it wasnt a call from Aus..I'd probably cekik him..@#$%^!!

Anyway, it's nice to hear from u n knowing that the others are fine ^^
Hope tat u guys could adapt the Melb lifestyle soon before coming back home..

DonE DoNe DONE

I'M D-O-N-E with examsssss !!!!
Hip Hip Hooray ~

Finally can put a smile on my face..
I'll be more cheerful when YOUR exam ends too..
Monday Monday..Can't wait for the moments after that..^^

All I want now is jz to get myself relaxed..after all the stresses and suffers..
Results? Don't even wanna think about it..JUST LET IT BE..
For now..It's time for..Shopping..Hang Out..Dramas..Sleep over..BBQ..Penang Food..Games..etc etc..
I got a lot to do in 3 weeks break..Hmph..It's so NOT enough..

The Chemical, Mechatronics students are as free as birds now..
Left with Mechanical students..
So..ALL THE BEST n BEST OF LUCKS!!

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Anyway..now only I realised that some friends are flying off to Aussie SO SOON for the exchange programme.. Been so busy eating books these days..N so lost with the outside world..
Sigh~I might not have the chance to meet them up..
Arr...Gonna figure a way no matter wat..

Feeling moody.

As stated...Full stop


It's only Monday..But I wish for Friday to come soon..