Happy Birthday to Me

After typing the title, sadness kind of arise.
Oh well, not the kind of very very upset feeling, but just a bit irony when comparing the word happy and my true feeling now.

As I grow up, I started to learn that birthday is just another day.
Probably because my parents have been treating my birthday a very special one year after year until my 21st. That's why since young, what is implant in me is that birthday is ought to be different from the other 364days.
However, the essence of growing up, has changed my naive thinking.
I guess it is the reality of life that hit me. That's when expectation meets disappointment.
No doubt I've experienced disappointment along the way, especially when you've someone important to you. But I've realised it is because I'm having too much expectation for something that would not happen. 
It's a bit sad to say this, but not everyone will think alike.
If I've not giving in hope for anything, there wouldn't be any let down.
So, this is just the way of life.
Oh well, while you are reading, you must be thinking ym's very pessimistic.
Yes, maybe I'm. You may change me if you think it's possible XD

The moment when I realised I'll be spending my birthday alone in Philippines due to work, it was terribly unacceptable at first.
However, this is a truly good opportunity given by the boss, so I sort of 硬着头皮 to accept.
Haha. I guess it is not a bad idea after all.
At least I had a fulfilled day, accomplished the task given, experienced new cultures, meeting new faces.
And most importantly I've no disappointment when there is no expectation! LOL this has become ym's theology.
 
Anyway people, thanks for the wishes on the day I'm given birth, irregardless of whether you really rmb it or it's FB that reminded you :P
I'll reply the FB messages when I'm back in Msia!
See you guys soon *cheers*

V day

Happy V day blog and readers!

It is another day to show l-o-v-e.
The radio has been playing love songs the whole morning.
♬Nothing gonna change my love for you...Baby, 你就是我的唯一...♫

Regardless of you are attached

or single


for me:


Haha. May you have a happy, sweet and memorable day!

龙年快乐


Haha I know this comes a bit late.
Oh well, we Chinese supposedly have 15 days of CNY celebration.
So I'm not too late XD

Wishing all the readers:
新的一年,新的希望
求学的:成绩突飞猛进
工作的:薪水职位步步高升
老板们:生意蒸蒸日上
愿每个人,身心健康,心想事成,天天开心!

2012

These days, in fact the beginning of 2012, blogspot starts to get 'lau juak' /haha
My dear veg started blogging *bravo bravo*
Nutz is back in blogging too *yippee*
Cyi has stop slacking and I've a good read while @ work *shhh*

I hope I'd be sufficiently inspired to blog constantly too.

By the way, Happy Twenty Twelve peeps! :)

hi-bye Penang

Was reminded by Nutz that I've sort of abandoned my blog.
Here I'm un-abandoning this space :P

Lots of things have been running through my brain.
I guess my brain just never stop thinking about many many things.
That just proves that I'm a female. *grins*

The down down period has sorted come close to an end.
As long as the emotions do not take control of the brain. This is a tough lesson.
Anyway, life is better now with things occupied. Be it work, friends or family. *warmth*

And I really love catching up with friends,
Everyone has different encounters in life. Put it all together it is a whole lot of new experience in it.
Really can't have enough of mini gathering. *luv luv*


Btw, I'm back in Penang for the weekend + 2 weekdays.
It felt like a long weekend on Sunday night, but somehow when it comes to Monday night, I wish I could stay longer.
Probably the things that bother me most is the comfortable life that I can get in PG.
Started to rethink if my decision to work in KL is a right one.
Worse still, I started to doubt myself for not giving Aussie a try before coming back to Msia.
That is an opportunity that many people dream of. Why did I let it go so easily?
*sigh* The more I think, the more I can't explain myself.
I know it will be all different. A better life will inevitably require more sacrifice.
People at different stage, will think differently.
If only at the deciding point, we can see it clearly what each path could lead us to in the end.
We've the freedom to choose our path, but not the desired destiny. There is not short-cut. *boohoo*
Why oh life, you aren't as simple as 生老病死。

Till then, hope to say Hello again to Penang soon.
Nitez People.

11/11/11

It's another set of number that gain the world attention again.

We always start counting from 1.
Since there's so many 1s in this date equation, I pray that I'd be gifted with good start after all the downs.
I don't know where I'm going nor which paths lead to which destinations.
上天自有安排
I just gotta have faith and live life to the fullest. *winks*



2011年11月11日,被视作“一双一对,一心一意,一生一世”。

有情人,务必要珍惜你的另一半;
单身贵族,不需气馁叹气,老套的一句,希望就在明天 :)

送你们111111个祝愿:
祝福你们:
幸福每1秒,
微笑每1分,
快乐每1天,
轻松每1周,
健康每1月,
收获每1年。

枯燥无味

现在的我 很无趣
生活 也同样的乏味
就连天气也没变,中午晒死人,傍晚倾盆大雨
每天生活在一样的方程式:起床、上班、午餐、下班、雨中塞车、吃饭、看书/泡连续剧、睡觉

好怀念以前的我,有泪水有欢笑,有失落有期待
如今的我,好像不怎么能够快乐起来
不仅是独处时,就算跟一伙人大笑,也只是表面功夫

夸张点说 有点儿行尸走肉的感觉
活着的生命 空虚的心灵
对生活 对这个世界 都已不再存有热情

我不想再这样下去
好想把从前的我找回来
可是现实好像没办法
愈是想要改变 愈是不知如何是好


有谁可以帮帮我

到此为止


希望所有负面的情绪可以到此为止。
我相信幸福有天也会轻敲我的门。

很欣慰有你们这班真诚、了解我的朋友。
真的谢谢你们这些日子的陪伴。











For Steve - 4S

Come across this post on Facebook and I feel like sharing


"Steve Jobs, considered one of the most visionary Americans of his generation and the cofounder of Apple computers, died Wednesday. Apple's board said in a statement that Jobs died "peacefully surrounded by his family," but did not give a cause of death, although he suffered from pancreatic neuroendocrine cancer for years. He was 56. Jobs cofounded Apple in 1976 with his childhood friend Steve Wozniak. In 1984 Apple launched the famous Macintosh computer, and Jobs went on to buy Pixar from George Lucas during an 11-year absence from Apple. During Jobs’s second tenure at Apple, he introduced OSX, the iPod, the iPhone, and the iPad—all considered revolutionary innovations. In 2004, Jobs announced he had a rare form of cancer, and in 2009 he was forced to take a six-month leave of absence. He returned, but health issues led him to take another leave at the beginning of 2011 before he eventually resigned as CEO in August. Apple released a statement Wednesday night saying they had "lost a visionary and creative genius" and "his spirit will forever be the foundation of Apple."

Now you know why the latest phone was named I Phone 4s, and not I phone 5, cause it means "For Steve" 4S... Wonderful man, wonderful creations shared for the world

Written by Potter SamLeong"

Very well written.
I like his/her thinking.
I was quite annoyed by all the accusation that most people have made on complaining there is no launching on iPhone 5. It's annoying because the entire page of my Facebook main page was all about this no. 5 non-existence.
I could understand that might come out due to disappointment.
But again, Apple never promise anything about a new iPhone 5.
It's all rumor that created by humans.
Imagine if nobody has started off with saying there could be an iPhone 5, how the new iPhone 5 would look like, will you guys get so disappointed with it?

Human's greed is never satisfied.
Human complains, regardless of good/bad.
Worse still, human has no sense of empathy. Selfish!

Right now, after knowing the loss of Steve Jobs', people are still relating it to the reality of no iPhone 5. =.=
*sigh* It's pathetic. If you are in his family's shoes, your loved one is gone. But what people care is only the product invented. How cruel.
Please make sense with it. The inventor does not owe you a new product, you should actually be proud and appreciate what he has done on the revolutionary which might has indirectly sacrificed his health and life.

*tsk tsk*
I'm not a super fan of Apple, nor I am anti of Apple's products.
But just couldn't bear with this insulting human behavior.

RIP, Steve Jobs.

1st Pakistan Visit

Some of you might know. I've just returned from 5-day Pakistan visit.
Well what I can say is that, it was not as worse as what I had in mind, but at the same time it is not up to my liking. I felt like going home even the first day has not ended. Erm..honestly I'm quite reluctant to be on the trip, but sometimes you just don't have choice in life.

The first difference I sensed was the smell! The smell from the people, the air, the water, everything. It's hard for me to describe, it is sorta a strong, dense smell and you'd rather not breathing in. I'm not sure whether it's because they do not bathe frequently with the add-on of 'repugnant' cologne which made it worse. However, it might be the same way if a foreigner visited our country and felt uncomfortable with our environment. In the end, it's just a problem of adaptation. From Day 1 till Day 5, I'd say my resistance lever has reduced tremendously, in which I proclaimed that my nose was malfunctioned. 我的鼻子坏掉了.
Thankfully, I felt like I'm able to breathe once again The moment I landed in Malaysia. But somehow my luggage still contained the 'Pakistani' smell.

Same thing goes to the food. Prolly the spices they used are not something that suit my taste bud. What they normally eat is bread (naan, pita etc) with a variety of curries,dhal and raw or pickled vegetable. Most of the people prefer bread over rice. The rice they grow in the country is the longer in shape and harder as well. I was told that they do not use coconut milk for their curries, but palm oil. That gives a very oily texture for the curries. Furthermore, I consider myself as someone who has sweet tooth. I get happy easily with desserts, BUT this does not happen in Pakistan. Their desserts are basically sugar, made of whole lump of sugar + syrup. One bite and that's it. It is way beyond my tolerance level. But the people over there eat as though it is of normal sweetness. Basically, the food I consumed over there is just to fill up the stomach and hardly enjoy anything. The food is either too much spices, too salty, too spicy or too sweet that I hardly could comprehend. By the way, they eat a lot as compared to people in Malaysia, might even been more than those ang mo. O.O

First meal in Pakistan. Nasi biryani + forgot what chicken + bread(nt shown here)

The buffet banquet at Salt and Pepper Village, serving local dishes.

Next, is the traffic. I thought it is worse enough in Vietnam.
But hey, the traffic in Vietnam seems like nothing comparing to Pakistan.
4 rows of vehicles in 2 narrow lane. Nobody is following the traffic signs or traffic lights.
Basically everyone just pushes their horn and they'd get through. If you do not give way for either slow driving or blocking the way, the horn button will be triggered continuously until the matter is resolved. In Bali, Indonesia, I've experienced how two cars from opposite directions can pass through a single lane with a gap of maybe less than 5cm by moving slowly. But over here in Pakistan, they drive so closely and yet they are speeding. I've been well trained for not to shout in the car even when I'm afraid sometimes ago. So I manage to hide my fear but shouted frantically with hidden voices.

Several unforeseen incidents occur throughout the trip. Flat tyre on a rainy day on the way to expo, spent few hours before the car could be on the run again. Flat tyre again after the expo. According to the agent, the car tyre has never been punctured for 5 plus years. We're somehow too lucky to encounter this. But then it is sorta expected with the bad road condition (big hole + lotsa stones) in some of the places.

The media has shown how unstable this country is. You'd never know how true it is until you make a visit to the place. But because of the impression given by the media, people might not be so adventurous for safety purposes. It might be true that for part of the country closer to Afghanistan has a different story. But in Lahore and Karachi, it is considered as quite peaceful though there is a lot of army check/inspection along the way. and sometimes I would doubt that if that would help. Even entering the hotel, we need to go through checking like what normally we see in airport.

Thanks to this trip. It has changed my initial perspective due to media. I do not mean to say that media has been reporting false news, but rather giving out false impression. Quoted from my agent, let's say if a bomber attack has occurred in the country, when it is being reported in all media available all over the world, worse still it will be reported repeatedly for different time slots on the TV news, it would seem like a Big serious matter. Definitely, that makes sense and I totally agree with it. This is for sure not good for the country development and affected its economy directly. Though I did not stay long enough to judge, but within those few days, it's all safe. Some has said that the chaotic was created by some countries which intend to be superior of all in terms of power, wealth etc. According to the conversation with one of the customers, as Pakistan is made of a real big piece of land, the climate in Pakistan varies from minus 30 to positive 50 degree Celsius. You can have everything in this one country, from greenery to snow mountain and to desert at the same period of a year!! Amazingly, the can have 4 seasons of fruits and vegetables at one time (strawberry, banana, rock melon, grapes, papaya, pineapple, peach, apple (they claim that their apple is sweetest of all)). You name it and they have it. It will be really amazing if one day this country has been developed, it is possible to compete with the China market. The population of 1 or 2 states would be on par with the population in Malaysia. It is really out of mind of how powerful this country would be if without the politician complication. Perhaps that explains why there are interference from some countries who think they are superior over others. =X

However it is true regarding the social class categorization. The saying of the rich would get richer and the poor would get poorer. Only those on the top gets to be exposed to more opportunity and suppressing the poverty. A lot of factors could change this, but sorry to say it is none of my concern. *Double =X* Just hope that by being more educated, things could change gradually. Surprisingly their communication in English is in fact excellent. The middle to upper class could converse in fluent English, which might be even better than some in Malaysia and definitely better than those in Thai and Vietnam. To be fare, I couldn't comment more as I've not been to other Asian countries yet. However it is really good to have a common language, so communication has not been a problem thus far.

Not sure if I will be sent to this country again. If you were to ask me, it is a mixture of yes and no for me to visit again. But I'm sure given with more time, I'll be more prepared to explore this place again!

Hmmm...it is getting boring.
Well, pardon me. It's a business trip. I couldn't be faking my feelings while expressing through. Not many photos been taken as well. My memory has been getting worse and that's why I'm capturing this piece of experience in the blog so that it could stay forever.
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